The Boys I Can't Have :(

Jesse H

Hey Guys, hope you liked learning a bit about Scott, oh and I forgot to add; his friends call him by a nickname: "Ark" or "The Ark" yeah, it's weird. Anyways, now it's time to learn about Jesse! Yay, enjoy, I know I will :)

~Jesse

Well, I first met Jesse in my Grade 12 English class. He wasn't there the first couple of days, and when the teacher called the attendance, I always wondered what this Jesse would look like.

His hair, when it isn't buzzed off, is a medium, to light brown colour and his eyes are a blue. I once thought they were brown, but it was just the light or angle.

He is skinny, not gonna lie, and he used to be big. He went to my Junior High, but I never noticed him. He does smoke and even though I don't myself, I would always smell him when he passed me, or came to class; just to remember. Ya, I'm weird.

Now, on to his clothes: He has a blue hoodie, that looks nice on him, and a gray one. He is also the type of dude who wears hats. He had recently wore a yellow shirt, matching shorts and hat, green shirt and maybe even red. He looks good in all colours. Purple was once on him, I think.

He is a bit taller than me, about 5'10. In English class, we'd have morning announcements, and when it was a morning class, and we stood for Oh Canada, I swear that at time, I thought he was looking at me and that he liked me, he even looked away! But Idk, boys are confusing.

I remember, I was walking to school, because I random take strolls there, and got to a park nearby, and he drove by, (yes, he can drive :) ) and saw me, and smiled, awh, it made me feel so happy.

Oh and being in Entrepreneurship, we had to run a business for a day. Mine was selling rock creations. Back to Jesse: His was selling candy in bags and I wanted to support his business, but I forgot to bring my money that day, I felt so sad and messaged him on Facebook telling him that.

He was there for the ENT exam and I was glad to see him. Oh Yea, and there were days, in both classes, where I missed him when he wasn't there. In a way, I got more work done and concentrated, but still.

His voice, now that's amazing, he never really talked in English, but once he did, I was shocked, it was perfect! kinda high, but really made you wanna listen to him. It wasn't deep, but I liked that.

Now, okay, his lips were like actually bothering me, sooooooo much! They are like red and pop out when he wore red, blue or his gross yellow hoodie/sweater. I have always wanted to kiss him, and have dreamed about just that, three times now.

1: The first time, we were sitting in the pit: area where u can sti on steps and a dip in the floor at my school and he was sitting next to me and talking and I just turned and then looked at him and leaned in and we kissed! It was cool and i don't really know how it felt cause I have yet to kiss a GUY so yeah, kinda sucky, still, super sweet, soft lips and nice kiss.

2: This time, he was like following me, and I saw those pink/red lips of his a lot and we were in my brother's bedroom (not like that, you dirty minded ppl, lol ) and I looked behind me, and saw him there and the door and was wondering why he was in my house even. We didn't kiss that time.

3: Okay guys, so this one was recent, like two days ago June 28th 2013 I think and I was at a Party ( I am never invited to them, don't drink, etc) and I was laying on this couch with him and we wear rubbing our legs against each other, idky it was weird, like we were testing the smoothness through our jeans, and then I was laying on him, and it was weird how it didn't look much like him, but i knew it was, and then i was laying more on his chest and looking at his lips a lot and he didn't notice and i remember thinking ( yeah, i think in my dreams, don't ask) that i should just do it, kiss him and enjoy the moment, it might never happen again, and so, in a burst of confidence, I grabbed his cheeks and pressed my kiss on his lips hard, lol idky and then broke it. Noticing that he didn't kiss back, I felt embarrased and looked everywhere but him and then felt dumb, because he didn't seem to notice and i didn't seem to feel like it was a true kiss, almost like it was rubber i kissed.

So this is the end of Jesse, I can't really think of anything else to add, but if I do, I might add it and tell u all about it. Hope you liked learning about Jesse H, and please vote, comment, like this and share it with ppl if u want, to let them know, that love stories don't always work in real life, the girl and guy who both secretly like each other don't often feel the same way 75% ( I totally just made that up!) of  the time.

Night and Good Morning my Followers, as I finish this, it is 1:48 AM where I live. 

Love you all