My Greatest downfall

Begin Again

After that scenario were back to normal,we go to school looked at one another but we never talked to each other its like we never knew each other at all.Its hard to be this way because at some point I kinda miss him, the fuss, the quarrels and all the things we do even the love making even though it just a one night stand ,I miss it all but how can I be with him when he doesn't feel the same, everything is so vague right now.

And in some point those dreams and memories of two kids playing together, making that promised bothered me a lot and it only happens when I'm with him.

I visit the orphanage every weekend to interview some patient there, I do it alone since that incident happened- the love making between me and max.And there was a 9 years old young boy who catch my attention because he has a unique story, if i remembered it clearly this is what he told me when I  asked him about his lives.

Would you mind if i ask you about some personal question? I ask.
Not at all,go on ask now miss.he said while grinning at me.
So,ammmm,do you have some friends who visit you  here?
Yes there is. Her name is Ren,she has a red hair and a two pairs of beautiful blue eyes.She always visit me here and play with me. He said whil smiling from ear to ear.
Okay.Amm.this ren-girl-with beautiful pair of eyes is she somewhat special with you? Because you seem to like her alot.
I-i do but i cant be with her for along time since i dont know if I would lucky enough to survive that 50-50 operation and to tell you the truth Im kinda afraid on how things will be going since you know. He said with that nonchalant eyes.
But you still have a chance you know that.You just have to believe kian.I said with that meaninful look saying everything would be alright.
He just nod.We chichat for more than an hour before i plan to leave.
Miss are you going to visit me here again? He asked as if afraid on how will i answered him.
Yes kian, i will visit you again and hang out with you.If i have a chance would you intruduce me to that friend of yours?
Sure thinh miss! She would be happy meeting you.Goodbye miss take care and see you again.
He wave me a goodbye before i leave the room.

CLASS HOUR

Im busy listening to our prof when someone poke me from behind and when I look who it is i gasp when its no other than max.

Hey! Are you mad at me? Your avoiding me since you left my house.Yann-
I cut him from what whatever his about to say.
No im not.it just that this past few weeks i do some stuff and dont worry about what happened between us max it was nothing just forget about me.
I feel my heart didnt accept that fact but i have to endure this near death of mine whenever im with him.hold on mr.heart,just hold on.
I hope we can be friends after all that happened yannie,lets begin again cause we seem to start at the wrong foot at first let me start from introducing myself.Im Max and you are?

He asked me to be his friend but i dont want to be his friend i want to be his girl.This is frustrating! Imagine the guy you like asked you to be his friends when deep in your heart you want to be more than that! Geeeeeeez!

Nice to meet you max, im yannie by the way.