Its was only 5:00 and i felt like hell i went in the bathroom and i looked at my self
Me- you killed daddy it was your fault he dead
I whisper tears form in my eyes and they fall .
Me- die Jay'lyn you just a dumb bitch die
I whisper again . I meeded to die i looked around for some pills but there was none so i silently walked down the stairs Tre was here and lucas was here and naye they were all sittin on the couch watchin ride along i crept past them amd into the kitchen i grabbed a knife and i looked at my wrist i started cutting my wrist when lucas wAlked in the door he screamed
Lucas - Jay'lyn nooo
He ran over to me and snatched the knife away i didnt get to gut it good enough For it to bleed. I looked at him and i yelled
Me- stop it lucas give it to me damn it
Lucas- no your not gonna kill your self
Me- stop give the knife here
I yell i start trying to reach for it but i was really short and he was tall
Naye- wtf jay
My knees gave in i slipped but licas caught me i started to cry
Me- lucas why didnt you just let me do it
Lucas- because ma ion want you to die
Me- but i deserve to die
Lucas- baby know you dont please dont think like that you hurt me when you say shit like that
Me- ok
Naye- jay please dont ever do that again you scared the hell outta me
At that moment tre walk in
Tre - is ya- Jay'lyn you was finna fuck yo self up dont do that shit nigga
Me-'ok ok guys i get it . But can you guys go i just wanna talk to lucas for a minute
I say gettin up and sittin on the counter
Tre&naye- ok
They walk out and i looked down at my feet
Me- why you so nice and cool to me ?
Lucas- i dont know you just seem so layed back and a good listener . I feel like ive known you forever
Me- aye was you in miss bright class 5th grade did you wear glasses
Lucas - yea that was me
Me- lucas
Lucas- huh
Me- you my bestfren you always there for me
Lucas - you my bestfren cause i know you' ll alaways be there for me
I smile at him he walks over to me and he huggs me i put my head inthe crook of his nexk then i whisper in his ear
Me- thanks for saving my life bestfren
Lucas- your welcome bestfran ,Now bring yo ass on
He say pickin me up and takin me off the counter and draggin me in the living room
