SAM.

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Chapter 1

"Zane, why won't you understand that things are different now" I say to my boyfriend Zane.
Zane stood in front of me with his short curly black hair hanging in front of his eyes, I used to love playing with his hair, letting it slide between my fingers well we cuddle in bed. he was 6'2 and he had dark brown eyes with beautiful brown skin color that I wish I had.

He signs angrily "because it's not different, I still love you Emily just like you love me right?" He stares deeply into my soul.

I feel bad for what I'm about to say "yes Zane I love you but it's not the same kind of love I once had for you" I try to explain without getting him to angry and hurt.

"I don't understand why it's changed" he tells me, I can see the anger in his eyes and I am scared if I speak again he will loss it.
"I don't want to be with you Zane, it isn't working out and I'm over your mood swings all the time" I dont care what I'm saying now I just need to get it all out
"ever since you're dad died you haven't been the same and sometimes it scares me" I explain.
"No Emily, does it scare you or are you scared of me?" This time I see hurt in him. I've had to do this though. I'm over being scared that he will come home from work either in a good mood and bad or saying something to make him bad. I shouldn't be dealing with this.
I open the door for him.

"You scare me" I say with tears running down my face.
Zane's face turns from guilt and sadness to bright red in anger, he stomps right up to me.

Please dont hurt me....
Please don't....
Please...

SLAP!

I put my hand up to my face. It burnt. I looked up at Zane. His face was blank. No regret, no sympathy, no emotions.

This has happened a few times before.

Zane and I had been going out for a few years now, but when his father died in a car crash a year ago that changed him.

He used to be so nice, kind and loving.

I loved him.

"Get out" I step away from Zane.

"Emily I'm sorry" he said.

Don't let him fool you Emily, not again.

"GO!" I screamed.

Zane nodded slowly and walked out of my flat, the room filled with silence. I closed the door and dropped to the ground, sobbing.

What happened to 'my' Zane?

I met Zane four years ago when my mum started her new job and became really good friends with her boss.

~Flashback~

Four years ago. (making them 13 years old)

"Hey Emily" my mum walked into my bedroom.

"We are having people over so dress up in your nicest outfit"

"Okay mum, just going to finish my homework quickly" she nodded, then walked out, shutting the door behind her.

I got up from my desk after finishing my homework.

What should I wear? A dress?

Yeah a dress! I opened my closet and pulled out my favourite summer dress that had different coloured flowers on it.

I put my hair into a plait, finishing with a red bow on top of my head.

"Honey, they're here!" I heard my mum call from downstairs.

Once I got downstairs I made eye contact with the most beautiful human ever. It was a guy around my age, he was around 5'5 tall and had the perfect jawline. He smiled at me. His brown eyes shining and that smile!

I didn't realise I was staring until my mum nudged my side. "Honey this is my boss, Mary and her husband Andy and her son, Zane. He is your age, say hi." I turned to Mary. She was pretty, had short hair and the same brown eyes as Zane.

"Hello Mary and Andy" I said with a smile then turned to Zane. "Hi" I waved awkwardly.

My mum and Mary went into the kitchen and his dad joined them, while Zane and I went into the living room. I sat on the couch and gestured for Zane to sit beside me.

I grabbed the remote and turned on Disney Channel.

Zane was pretty cool. He knew all the shows and the characters from them and he loved Kim Possible just like me. After talking about shows and the weather, my mum called us for dinner.

I sat next to my mum and Zane sat next to his mom and his dad was on the end of the table.

"Zane do you like Emily" his mom asked him. He nodded. "Yeah, she is cool and she likes Kim possible like me" he smiled proudly. I blushed. He was so nice.

Then my mum turned to me. "Do you like Zane?"
I nod. "Yes I do" Zane smiled.

~Flashback Over~

That's how we met and fell in love when we were thirteen years old.

I smiled at the thought. I missed him, the old him.

I shook my head at the thought.

I have been through his pain too.

My dad left me and my mum when I was ten. He left to America with his boss that he had fallen in love with. I was in so much pain. How could a father do that to his family?

I need to move on from my past. My dad is gone and Zane is gone too.

I keep telling myself that I would of had to break up with Zane anyway. In a week I will be off to university in London away from this small town I'm from. I'm going with my best friend, Rachel. This is good for me, I can get my degree for journalism within a few years and go travelling the world.
This is a fresh start from everything and one.

A/N
First chapter yeet
What do you think?

I'll try to have longer chapters just I'm really lazy and have no idea what to write about.🙊