It makes me fucking sad. It makes me so fucking sad. I just want someone to care about me as much as I care about them. Is that too much to ask for? For someone to care Joe didn't no one did. No one. I have fucking nobody. Nobody! NOBODY!
There's nobody. I feel like I'm just here as a plaything we fuck you leave. I get attached you don't.
Thanks for making me realize that I really am just daddy's little slut and that's all I'll ever be.
How fucking sad what's the point me saying all this you won't answer anyways or you'll get hurt I'll feel bad and somehow I'll be the one apologizing. I want you so badly but I want you to want me too. I don't want to be hurt anymore. Jesus Christ, I can't take the hurt anymore. It feels like a hand around my throat strangling me. I can barely breathe just typing this.
Why don't you care as much as I do Why don't you stay and talk? Do you love me? Am I just fighting for someone that won't fight for me? Is this all pointless in the grand scheme of life? Is this a test to see how far you can push me before I break?
Is this all I'll ever be someone behind a screen begging you to love me as I love you?
Merry fucking Christmas to me.
-Loveless_Jenova-
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The Ramblings of the Mentally Unstable
Não FicçãoMy thoughts when I lay in bed at night.
