What Was My Fault?

Chapter 1: How it began

October 17th, 1997

It was a warm autum day. The trees were turning brilliant shades of red, yellow, and brown as they usually do this time of year. Some were floating to the ground and in the air any time a breeze came passing by. It seemed liek any other day.

Me and my best friend Rachel were at the park using the swing set. It was our favorite spot to go to.

We were taking turns pushing each other on the swing. It was my turn to push Rachel when i saw someone out of the corner of my eye. It was a boy with reddish brown hair, golden tan skin, full cupid shaped lips, and the bluest eyes i have ever seen. OMG is he so cute. How come i've never noticed him before?

"Chloe, aren't you going to push me?" Rachel asked me sitting on the swing complaining, but my mind and my eyes were focused somewhere else.

"Wow", I say absentmindedly.

"Wow what?" Rachel asked me looking over at the boy i was basically staring at now. "Oh" Rachel said. "He is wow."

He was playing in the field with some other guys playig soccer. He looked so cute running around after the ball. He was pretty damn good at soccer, i must admit.

"Do you know him?" Rachel asked me still staring at the boy.

"Nope" i replied matter of factly. Though i wish that i did. It's weird though. Before now i had never even given boys a second glance. I was more intrested in haveing fun with Rachel and sports that i didn't take the time to notice guys.  Strange how i notice this one boy at this moment.

"I'm going to go say hi" Rachel says getting off of the swing set. This snaps me right out of the trance. She starts walking over to the field and i grab her arm to stop her.

"Wait what?" I asked Rachel even though i heard her the first time. I'm just hoping that she'll see my face and realize that she can't do what she said she's going to do.

"I'm gonna go say hi to him" she repeats.

"Why?" I asked her even though i have a pretty good idea as to why she wants to say hi to him. Same reason that i do.

"'Cause he's cute and i want to." Rachel told me. Her voice sounded as though she was getting annoyed with me and that i should know all of this already. "Now let go of my arm Chloe."

"No. And you can't say hi to him" I told her.

"And why not?" She asked me confused and mad.

"Because i think that he's cute and i like him. That's why." There i said it. I might not have said it in the best way, but at least i said it. I like him even though i've never met him.

"You do?" Rachel asked me all surprised. She knew that i've never payed any attention to boys before. So the fact that i actually said that i like this boy was a pretty big deal.

"Yeah, I like him. So you can't say hi to him." I said in a softer tone of voice. Maybe she'll realize that this is important to me and then maybe she'll back off. Rachel turned to look at the boy again and turned back to me.

"But..." she started but stopped. "Come on Chloe, he is so cute. Can't you just find another guy or say hi to one of his friends, or something?"

Was she insane or something? "It took me 11 years of my life to find a guy who i think is cute Rachel. How long is it going to be before i find another one? Lets get serious here Rachel." I say in an angry tone of voice. "Look Rachel i saw him first so that means i get him." I insisted.

Get him? God, I'm talking about this guy as if he were a piece of property. That's so unlike me, but at this moment i don't care about that. Or even what Rachel wants. I want to be with him and she is not about to stop me.

I push Rachel aside, yep that's right push, and half walked half ran over to where the guys were playing soccer. As i walked up to them the ball got awahy from one guy and headed towards me. I stopped the ball and picked it up. The cute guy  that i liked ran over to me.

"Hey" he said and smiled at me. That smile sent my heart to the moon and back, twice. Oh wow.

"Hey" i managed to say to him. I'm surprised it didn't come out all weird or anything. I smiled back at him.

"Thanks for stopping the ball before it got away." He says as he hold both his hands out for the ball.

"Uh, yeah it's no problem." I say handing the ball over to him. "I was just, um, wondering if, um, i can play soccer with you guys?" There i did it. I said hi to him and asked to play soccer with him. Now i just hope he doesn't say no and completely crushes my heart to dust.

"Yeah sure you can. I need and extra player on my team anyways." He gestures with his arm for me to follow him to the other guys.

Yay! I get to play soccer with the only guy that i've ever had a crush on. I'm so happy right now.

I look back over at Rachel standing in the same spot that i left her. She has a half shocked half pissed off look on her face. But i'm so giddy and happy that i don't even care about her feelings. I smile, stick my tongue out at her in a sort of 'ha ha' way and make my way down the field to play soccer with my potential boyfriend and his friends. 

Can this day get any better?

I sure hope so.