Oops! I Broke Myself....

i just don't know.

And I don't know why I never get that I really want or people that I can trust and actually stick around or a proper body that makes me pretty or my skin color isn't so dark I don't know what I did to have people who I love die and friends who I thought were real walk away and insult me I don't know what I did for my father to stop loving me and i don't know why I cant be perfect in school like he wants me too or be the perfect daughter because I try so hard but he doesn't give a fuck and now I just don't know anymore and I don't know why I think my life is so shitty when there's other people who has worse life's and I don't know why I feel guilty about feeling this way but I do and I do know isn't that I haven't cut in months that I've been trying so hard to be strong and help people and be loveable but god dammit I can't and I'm breaking down all over again and this time it feels like the end and this time I doubt anyone can save me