First it was my mom. She got thrown in jail for illegally growing marajauana and having other countless drugs in the house including meth and oxicoton. So there was a restraint order placed. I was eight. And I was left guessing what happened to her. She was my role model and my only escape from my other life. How do you cope with a loss that big in your life at so young? You don't. I started cutting at a very young age. And I didn't stop until last year. When I opened up to my boyfriend he convinced me he loved me then dropped me on my ass once someone with a nicer one walked by. I started cutting again. This time I didn't stop, I loved Steven Anthony and still do more than anything in the whole entire world he is my everything and every chance I get I tell him and prove it but still he sleeps around and has a new girlfriend every week. I met Riley and tried to love him but it wasn't like Steven so I ended it. Still no one knows about my cuts except for Mady Kaye Ridenour. She has talked me up at my worst moments. The first time I tried to kill myself it was her. It has always been her. Thank you Mady for everything. This is only the start of my story I'm still only ten in this chapter remember.
