Try Again.

E I G H T

[November 22; 7:12 am; at Demi's]

Demi.

Everything was going great, personal life and my work life. Wilmer and I were still going strong and Joe and I were getting stronger. The last week of October was great for me, but not for Joe. Nick and I went on the today show in New York and announced that we were touring together next year on our tour called, Future Now. Joe wasn't very happy for us about that. I think he was jealous that I'm touring with his brother and not him, but something else got him distracted. Him and Gigi decided to break up because of their busy schedule. Joe seemed more upset about the breakup than Gigi was. Tonight was the American Music Awards and I was going with Wilmer. Nick, Joe, Wilmer and I were getting on a bus and riding to JLo's after party.

Joe stayed the night last night after we went on a secretive date. Wilmer wasn't coming home until 10. "Morning, baby." I pecked Joe's lip. He looked adorable when he was sleepy.

He let out a small smile, "Good morning,gorgeous." I stared at his eyes. I couldn't have it all. I couldn't be in love with two men. I couldn't play neither of them, definitely Wilmer...He saved my life. I can't keep doing this to them. "What's wrong?" I guess he could tell I was in a thinking zone.

"I....I...can't do this..." I sat up. I suddenly felt sick to my stomach. I loved Joe, but I just couldn't see us doing this relationship again. Joe sat up, surprised.

Joe threw his feet on the side of the bed and I watched him slip on pants. Was he not going to say anything? I was confused. "I don't know what's wrong with me...I can't keep anything... I'm 26 years old, I haven't met anyone yet, I want to get married."

"Joe, you will get married. You will find that somebody again." He just shook his head.

"I'm obviously not good for you...so you don't have an idea about my future.." he stared at the wall.

"It's not you... It's me...that saying is shitty, but it's true...I can't keep doing this to Wilmer, he saved my life." Joe slipped on his shirt.

"I know I fucked up 5 years ago, but if you are depending on him to keep you sober and healthy, then that's pretty fucked up,Demi." he finally looked at me. I glared at him.

"Joseph! You have no room to say anything! He visited me every weekend while I was in rehab." I crossed my arms. He shook his head in disgrace.

"I was your ex boyfriend...I would be the last person you would want to see while recovering," he looked down at the floor, "but I guess you love him because he saved you and you rely on him. You know if he dumps you, you're not going to rely on anything and you'll be back to rock bottom."

My mouth dropped, was he serious right now?! "Joseph! I don't rely on him!"

He rolled his eyes, "You wrote on your Confident booklet, 'you are truly the reason why I'm alive today.' I just want you to be able to rely on yourself and not on a man to keep you clean."

He was getting me mad, "I think it's best if you leave. Now." he grabbed his keys. Without saying a word, he left. I flopped back on the bed, I let out a big scream of frustration.

[Noon; Joe's place]

Joe

I was mad at Demi. I knew I shouldn't have said what I said, but I was mad because we were having a great time together and she decided to cut it off. She was happy. I was happy. It was curing my heart from Gigi.

I shook it off and got ready for the AMAs. DNCE and I weren't nominated for anything, we were just going to present Nick and just meet celebrities. We all were going to be in match colors, which was maroon. I had the top of my hair colored blue. I had on a pattern button up shirt with a maroon leather jacket and maroon jeans.

We went to the red carpet, did a few photos and interviews. We did a little gif picture for the AMA twitter page. Demi decided to photobomb, which I played it cool. She looked absolutely gorgeous. I headed inside the show with my band to our assigned spots.

AMAs was amazing. Jennifer Lopez was a great host. DNCE and I jammed out to Demi performing Confident. The camera also filmed me singing along, which caused a lot of hipe. DNCE went on the stage later to present Nick on his performer. He killed it with a melody of Chains, Levels, and Jealous.

Demi went back on stage and sang You Oughta Know with Alanis Morissette. They both killed it.

Justin Bieber closed the show with his performance and my band, Nick, and I got on a tour bus with Wilmer and Demi. (Nick begged us). We all danced on the bus to the music going while we headed to grab something to eat before we headed to JLo's afterparty.

I looked over at Wilmer and Demi, they were cuddling on a couch, I felt some jealousy, but not much. I sneaked a photo in and sent it to Wilmer. We all got off the bus and headed into the restaurant. The place was re-showing the AMAs. I got my phone out and opened the snapchat.

"Yeah,Demi," I filmed her, she wasn't paying attention, "yeah Demi," still ignored until Wilmer made her look, "YEAH,Demi." I moved my phone to the tv.

"Yeah!" she gave a fake laugh. I was getting tired of her attitude tonight, so I couldn't wait to go home.

After the restaurant, we got back on the bus and arrived to the party where we took separate ways. I was hanging out with different people with my band, where Demi hung out with Wilmer, Nick, Casper, and JLo.

Later in the night, I was a little bit tipsy and things got a bit out of control. They asked me to take a picture with Wilmer and Demi. It was a bit awkward. I didn't smile much because I was trying to not tell Wilmer.

That was when the alcohol came over.

"I bet you didn't know Demi and I fucked last night." I smirked. Demi gave me a big mean glare. I looked over at Wilmer, and he was looking at me.  

I hope you all are having a wonderful Christmas! ( for those who celebrate it) Sorry it's take forever to update, just got a time and it's crazy during the holidays. I hope you don't mind that my winter/Christmas series will be past Christmas. xoxox Chloe.