Cuts and Bruises

chapter 6

FAM HELLO ITS ME. So much has happened since I last updated. exams. i went to jingle ball. sam and Kian look more amazing. I've been thinking about this story so much and I have so many ideas for it. I'm going to force myself to write more. enjoy babes:

recap:

I lay down on the floor and curl up into a ball, trembling and crying. "I can't do this. I can't fucking do this." I whisper, more tears come out of my eyes. I take slow shaky breaths just wanting to sleep. the last thing I remember is me begging not to wake up.

Kians pov

I wake up cold on the floor, my body aching. I sit up on the wooden floor and start thinking about last night. my dad drank, again. I broke. I cried. i quickly shake my head and stop my thoughts. I force myself up and walk over to my phone, I got a text from an unknown number, i click to read it

hey it's sam, I kinda sorta toke your phone and wrote your number down, don't ask when. don't ask how. don't ask why. wanna come over today? xx

I smile at the text. even the thought of seeing sam makes me happy. I responded immediately.

hey sammy, sorry I didn't answer earlier, I was sleeping, I had a really long night. id love to come over, just text me your address and what time :)

it's 12:06 in the afternoon. he's probably out. I walk over to my old ratty dresser and pull out a plain dark blue shirt and black jeans. I get changed, leaving the clothes from last night on the floor. I pull out a few bracelets then tie them on nmy wrist  to cover the 'marks'. I was about to grab my jacket then my phone buzzed. it was the 'unknown number'  I need to add Sam as a contact. before I even read his text I add him as 'sam <3'. his text said:

just come whenever. I'm not doing anything...

and then his address. I put my phone in my pocket and grab my black jacket and charger.  I open my door slowly to get out and close it again. I want to the stairs and tip toe down them. I look at my dad, he's sleeping. of course he is. I'm assuming he was up all night drinking and doing whatever the hell else he does when I'm locked in my room. I walk to the kitchen and take the keys to the jeep off the counter. I quickly sprint to the front door and leave the alcohol smelling house behind me. the jeep we have is just a dark green one with tinted windows, nothing special. I put Sam's address into my phone and start driving. I've only known sam for a little over a day. everything's happening so fast. I mean Sam seems so nice, he picked me up off the floor of school, having no idea who I was, and then toke me to a carnival. what the fuck?? people aren't nice to me like he is, I don't get why he even waisted his time to get me off the floor. then it hits me. school. it's Saturday. thank god. but I have to go back on Monday. maybe I won't go back. we'll see what happens Monday I guess. as soon as I get to a stop sign I realize I'm at Sam's street. thinking can either kill you and make time seem so damn slow, or it can distract you and make time fly by. I turn down his street and turn into the parking lot of Sam's apartment. shit, I probably should have told him I was coming. great job Kian!! I'm such a dumb fuck. I text him.

hey,,, I'm in your parking area. I should have texted you when I left my house. sorry sam😁😩🔫

I get a response almost immediately.

Sam <3: okay, I'm coming down.  do you want to take my car or yours?

me: well where are we going?

sam <3: to subway and the mall
Sam <3: if that's okay with you.

I swallow, hard. eating. of course he had to pick lunch. I'm just going to have to suck it up and eat. if I get sick, oh well.

me: yeah, sounds nice💗 well take your car if you don't mind. I'm not a huge fan of driving haha.

Sam <3: I understand. I'm walking to your car now.

a second later he's knocking on the car window. I take the key out of the ignition and get out of the car. "hey sam" I smile. "hey ki" he says brightly. I lock the car door and he leads the way to his car. "so how are you?" I ask, trying to break the silence. "I'm good, you?" "I'm okay." we reach his car, he unlocks it an we get in it. "what song do you want to listen to?" Sam asks "it's your car, you pick the music." "you're the guest. you pick" "okay. can I see your phone to look at your music?" he hands me his phone smiling. I take a moment to appreciate his outfit. he's wearing a black fedora, black jeans, and a black shirt. note to self: Sam in black is a yes. I look through his music and click on 'Dollhouse by Melanie Martinez' "good choice" Sam chuckles and stops at the light. I can't get over his cheeks. they're so pink and gentle and beautiful. when the song starts I begin mouthing the words. the light turns green and we begin to drive again. we arrive in the mall plaza. I feel my stomach knot up and my breath quickens. it's because of eating. I can't eat. breathe Kian. breathe. 4 seconds in 8 seconds out,  I repeat in my head. I suddenly feel like crying and shaking. Sam says excuse me while he put his hand in front of my body and opens the glove compartment. he takes out earbuds and some money then shuts the car off. I shakily open the car door and walk over to Sam's side of the car. "ready?" no. "yup!" I get ready to start walking then I feel a tug on my arm. I turn around and it's sam. he walks up to where I am and hugs me. this is just what I needed to calm myself down. I smile and hug back. the knot in my stomach is soon replaced by butterflies and fireworks from sams skin touching me. I don't want this hug to end. I want to freeze this moment in a frame and live in it forever. he pulls away and we start walking side by side. "do you like sandwiches?" Sam asks "yes oh my god." "okay just checking. if you didn't I would say we could just walk around the mall and if you're hungry we can find something." I should have said not really when he asked me damn it. I try to think of something to say so I don't have to eat. "actually, I had breakfast before I left for your house so I'm not hungry sammy" he nods and says "same to be honest. so do you want to just walk around the mall?" "yeah, I left my money at home so I can't get anything but-" he cuts me off. "I'll get you something if you see something you want don't worry" "Sam I can't let you do that" "Kian yes you can now hush." since we parked in the back, we're just now making it to the entrance.