My Head

Feelings from "Him"

The feelings that I get from him are kind of complex in a way. Like that feeling when you like someone and you hardly know them. What an unfortunate feeling to have. Liking him makes me happy to some degree but, then there's the realization that something will most likely not happen because of how well you and the other person actually know each other. But then again, there's always that really small possibility that something could happen. I mean the small possibility has actually occurred before so that's cool I guess.  The whole situation didn't end well though. Ah, eighth grade. I have no idea what happened that year. Between eighth grade is when things starting changing.  Lost some friends but, that's ok I guess, they're mutual acquaintances. Dated some people, regretted breaking up with some of them.  But the first semester of ninth grade was pretty like bad I guess. Going to high school wasn't that bad in retrospect, but, I want to leave that hell hole already because people piss me off I swear. My English teacher's a bitch and go back to China.  Lost a whole other group of friends this year too, yay. Literally to unfriend me, one of them sent a text saying how she and the other people in the group were done with me. Like hA. She never made the effort to actually talk to me in the first place so yeah. People I swear. Not to mention my grades are eh. My language arts teacher is the only one who didn't give me an A and that's depressing. My fathers pissed. My mothers a bitch. How much stress do these people need to put on me goddamn