Got that feeling of regret sometimes
deep down I want to rewind.
All the pain he gave
and all the wishes I never should've made
tell me, is regret a normal thing these days?
They say
"you learn from your mistakes."
But how many times do I have until somebody looking at me crazy?
How many times do I have until somebody else is calling me baby?
How many times do I have until
somebody realize that
this.is.real.
Depression aint the real
It's the anger that keeps me here.
In this nasty place of regret
place of no discernment.
I'd say I have a few rules to keep
but as a hypocrite
why even keep me on my feet?
Break rules, and break em more!
But later i have to regret more?
I'm sick of consequences
nobody else feel bad.
But since it's me..
I got to wish to be glad?
pray from being sad?
and cry from being mad?
Why can't I just stand straight
without tears skipping to laugh?
Take me as I am
if you don't like it, oh well.
Keep the two cents in
and your sense can be overwhelmed.
I repeat the un-listened
and listen to the repeated.
But at certain times
I feel like I need to break free.
Get a little loose
make sure I don't lose
anyone else that cares for me
yet I fail to care about.
I need to care
and lately it seems
I have to regret things to get there.
How come I can't just...
do things and let it stay there?
My past, present and future is all on my actions
all on what I've done
and acting like I don't know what's happening.
But this time
and for the future holds
I think I've matured enough
to know that being me
isn't as bad as it seems though.
