Tell Me What You See

In Spite of All the Danger

It was Friday night and Paul couldn't wait to get to Rita's. They finished in the studio early, around eleven. All had finished putting their gear away. George martin had left from the control room as the four Beatles bundled up and walked out the door of the warm studio. Coldness blew around them as the wind picked up. George pulled his collar up and said good-bye as he ran to his car. Ringo followed George's lead; he never did like the cold winter air. They both got into their cars and road off.

Paul's mind was filled with excitement as he thought about seeing Rita. It wasn't just seeing her, but just being with her, although the thought of making love to her had made an imprint in his mind all week. Paul was jolted out of his thoughts when a hand grabbed his coat sleeve. He turned quickly to see John, standing with his hands stuffed back in his pockets, red face from the cold and his cap pulled over his ears. Paul adjusted his muffler and pulled up his collar to block the wind that hit him in the face as he turned to John.

"Hey mate, some suds at the pub? Or perhaps we could go clubbing, find us some girls and get bladdered?" A grinned plastered John's face as he asked Paul to go with him.

Paul lit a cigarette for both of them. The warmth of the lighter felt good in his hands. He held one out to John who nodded as he took it. They inhaled the smoke and watched it mix with the cold white air as they exhaled for a minute.

Paul hated to say no to John. He knew how unhappy John was at home and how he hated to leave so early. Paul knew that John felt imprisoned at times and would stay out until the wee hours of the morning to avoid his cage. Then he'd sleep late into the afternoon, escaping in a dream world. Paul could only imagine what that dream world was, but he knew it didn't include Cyn or Jules. For this he felt sad. He loved John's family and often wondered how John couldn't be happy having them. He took his keys out of his pocket and pulled another drag off of his cigarette as John waited impatiently for his answer.

"C'mon mate. Come with us and keep us company. We'll have a grand time, I promise." Paul thought John looked sad, begging in his own way.

"Naw got me some plans set already. Next time perhaps." Paul shook his head and then looked down almost afraid to see the disappointment in his friends face.

"No? Plans? ......What plans are these may I ask." John's questions came out with some bitterness. John knew where Paul's plans would lead him, right into Rita's arms. The arms that John had dreamed of a few times. His lips tightened around the cigarette as he gave it a last tug. He threw it hard onto the ground and stomped it out. His chin buried in his muffler and his eyes drifted up to Paul as he waited for an answer.

Paul could see the clouds of disappointment cross John's face, or was it anger, in the dark cold night he wasn't sure.

"Gonna see Rit for the weekend. I haven't been with her alone for a week." Paul announced.

"You've only known her a few weeks." John voice was stoic as he realized Paul was picking Rita over him. Would he have done the same thingif he were lucky enough to have won Rita's heart? Of course he would, but he didn't let on as he answered.

"Aw, c'mon Johnny, give us a break ere won'tcha? I don't know what it is with this one. You see it, she's special and not just because of the situation either," Paul begged John to understand. He looked down to find they had come to his car. He unlocked the door, held it open and lend against it.

"She's just a bird Paul. A bird, like all the others you've fucked when Janie's gone. I mean don't get me wrong, she's nice and I like her and all that sort, but ya have to admit this situation can bring two people together in this sort of way." John fancied Rita, who wouldn't, but he had seen Paul with birds before when Jane was away. He figured that Rita was safety to Paul and John understood this. He didn't like it, but he understood. He just didn't want Paul to hurt Rita, the girl held a warm spot in John's heart.