Chubby Is The New Black

20

I'd never thought I'd be sitting here.

I touched my stomach and cried. Why am I doing this. This is stupid... I'm stupid.

Why can't anything good happen to me, why is it that... is God punishing me?

My family came rushing towards me. My brother saying don't do it. Same with Brads family. But my mother she scowled at me.

She took a good look at me and slapped me across the face. "What the fuck are you thinking" I didn't say a word "You think Brad would want you to get an abortion"

"He would want me to be happy"

Eric hold me by the shoulders "I know Elle, you've been going through shit and you should have never go through, but taking this child's life away is not the right answer, I mean for one this is one of the only things you have of him, tell this baby stories of it's father. Don't just take it's life away like how you wished your life to be taken away"

He made me cry I cried into his shoulders. I miss Brad, I miss his comfort. I want this baby... I truly do.

"I'm so sorry Bradley" I kept crying.

***

At the funeral I met Brad's father...

Complete ass by the way.

He talks as if he is the best and he is blah blah blah blah. I just wanted the day to be over.

I hate funerals. I hate saying goodbyes.

Then I just imagined what if I actually did kill myself... this would be my funeral... thank you Brad for saving my life.

Seniqua was at the funeral, she walked up to me and smiled "I'm sorry that he died... he was a good person"

"Yes... he was"

"I'm also sorry for bullying you... to be honest I was jealous of you"

"Me?"

I nodded "I mean... to be honest you are beautiful and I was also jealous that Brandon picked you instead of me"

"Oh..."

"I'm just terribly sorry... and I am sorry I ever said those things to you... could we possibly become friends?"

"Sure... if your up to it"

"Most definitely"

"It'll hurt your popularity status"

"Its better than you dying, how about this, if any other ass try and bully you, just come to me"

"Thanks"

She smiled.

His father came to me and smiled then Seniqua walked away "I hope you realized that you will not be needed into this family"

I smiled at him "your saying this because"

"How about when your baby is born you give the child to me, clearly you are unstable to be having a child and too young in fact"

An old woman who is called Ms. Vera also known as Brad's grandma walked up to us "I hope your not trying to bribe her for the baby" she said.

"M-"

"We made you little boy, don't make us break you" she said pointing at him.

"Is that a threat mother?"

"Always"

He walked away like a spoiled child "I am so sorry for my son, if you need any help call Ms. Vera"

"Yes Grandma"

Her eyes widen and she smiled then she brought me to a hug "my grandson picked a beautiful woman" she said.

That made me tear up.