Don't Let Me Be {twenty one pilots fanfiction}

ride

"who would you live for?"

When Josh was around, he would never stop cracking jokes or talking about Ashley. He was so full of life and creativity, and I miss having him around. Josh gave me life too, just like he did to everyone in his life.

"who would you die for?"

Josh was loyal. He never once cheated or left any of us behind. He deserved a better best friend. I feel as if I can never return what I owe him, but I guess that's not an option now. I wish I could exchange my life for his.

"and would you ever kill?"

My life has become dull without Josh. I find myself searching for reasons to live every day. My mind wanders to the bathroom cabinet every once in a while. I think of how only a bottle would sweep me away to a place I would be happy. I've already killed my body, now I just need to silence my mind.

"oh, oh i'm falling,"

My thoughts consume me in darkness. I'm at war with myself. It feels as if I'm sinking into an endless pit. The farther I fall, the darker it gets. Maybe if I just give in to the thoughts I'll be happy.

"so i'm taking my time-

Jenna keeps getting mad at me for never being around anymore. I'm always wandering around town or hiding in alleyways or walking around the park. She cries because I'm not the same. I will never be the same.

"on my ride."