My Unfortunate Love of Girls // LGBT

Boys.

*LENYX'S POV // PRESENT DAY*

Ping Ping
I pick up my phone and unlock the message notification. I smile because it's from Chris, my boyfriend. I read the first few words and my stomach drops.
"I'm sorry do this this way but..."
I drop my phone on my white comforter and close my eyes trying to clear my head. Oh... oh no... he wouldn't do this. Just... just calm down... it's okay... He loves you...
"Lenyx, I'm breaking up with you. Look I'm sorry but this just isn't working out, I feel like you don't actually love me, like you love someone else. Don't cry over this. It was stupid of me to waste my time."
Waste YOUR TIME?! Wow. I guess I was just a waste of his time. It's probably because I wouldn't have sex with him. I hate boys. Especially ones I'm friends with. 'Just friends' is how they all start out. The only people I hang out with is mainly Emsé and guys. My mind is racing so fast so the first thing I do is text Emsé and tell her that she needs to pick up. I call her immediately and don't even give her a chance to answer my text. I never cry, I just have panic attacks. I only cry when something traumatizing happens.
"Hello?! Hello?! Lenyx what's going on?!"
"Emsé, Chris just broke up with me."
"Oh ... Lenyx I'm so so-"
"Over a text."
"Holy fucking hell!! What the fuck?! How did he.. Why did he.. WHAT?! You're fucking gorgeous and perfect why would he do that especially over a text?! What the hell?! Just don't worry about it. Okay? I'll be there in a few minutes. I'm getting in my car right now. I'll be there soon okay? I love you ."
"Okay... bye.. I love you too."
"Bye."
As I hung up I thought about how I truly felt about Chris... did I even really love him? I loved Emsé. But, I certainly didn't feel that way about Chris. I've never felt that way about any boy... Why? I'm straight..... Right? Okay stop Lenyx. You're questioning yourself because he broke up with you that's all, you're just psyching yourself out. Just calm down....
I walk downstairs and get out the warmest blankets and the fuzzier ones like Emsé likes. I feel like I should be crying and eating icecream and watching Netflix but, I'm not. I just don't feel like I need to. Yea this hurts but I'm pretty much already moved on. Why waste my time crying over someone who I don't really truly love? If Emsé left me I'd be torn apart but she's my best friend so of course.
Ding Dong
I snap out of my deep thought and go answer the door. When I open the door, Emsé stares back at me with sympathy in her eyes. I love her grey eyes. They truly are amazing, they show her emotion so easily and she's so open, I love it.
I break the silence. "You know how I am Esmé, I've almost already fully moved on."
"Lenyx, it's okay to cry."
I chuckle. "But I'm not sad. You're all I need. Boys are stupid anyways."
"You're right but, are you sure you're okay?"
"Yes I'm sure."
"Well can I sleepover tonight? I want to be with you to make sure you don't think about him once tonight."
I smile and chuckle. "Yes of course."
"Good because I already have my stuff in the car."
We laugh together and I remember exactly why I said I loved her back that day when we were nine years old.
"Emsé... we do need to talk about something I've been questioning."
"Alright go ahead. You know I'm always here for you." she smiled.

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