What is Love?

~Chapter One~

S o p h i e ' s  N o t e- DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVE NOT READ 'Awake All Night'  You will probably be like "The fuck?" Or just be confused... I mean maybe you can read this with out reading 'Awake All Night' I don't know.. I think it would make more sense to read the first book though. Well, anyways! This is the second book to 'Awake All Night'. It's another short story just to warn you, so it will move pretty quick, but not like SUPER quick like a good pace quick. Make sense? Hope so... I had troubles spelling "Hope" It kept coming out at 'Hoe' AWKWARD! ANYWAYS! Hope you like it! (It happend again...)  B Y E !

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~October 2nd 2014 - 9:00 am~

A little over a year has past since I have moved to New York. A lot has changed. I have to take depression pills everyday, because I was suffering from really bad depression... I haven't had a boyfriend since I left L.A and I think it's getting to Scott. He doesn't like me being unhappy. I've talked to Alli since I've left but not Cody... I called him on his birthday, but he didn't answer, so I left him a message.

"Hey Cody... I wanted to say Happy Birthday and sorry for not telling you about leaving, I just couldn't have you there when I left because it would have been to hard. I hope Matt gave you the letter... I hope life is treating you well. Hope to see you and your family soon. Bye."

That's what I left him... But nothing. I think- no I know I hurt him badly. I should have let us have that little romantic airport scene, but I was to blind to see that's all we needed to let go... Now I suffer because I can not let go... Every blond boy I see, I think of Cody. When he is on my t.v I break down. I um... actually started to.... uh... cut myself...  People also say I had anorexia, but I don't think I do, or did. So I don't eat a lot? Whatever, people are starving in Africa, go feed them with the food I don't want.

Depression is a bitch....

I'm actually better. I haven't watched a lot of t.v because I don't want to see Cody. I'm moving on. I still have to take my pills though so I don't go back into depression. I also have to take a pill that makes me hungry so I HAVE to eat, and vitamins.

"Aubrey? Are you awake?" My mum asked walking into my room.

"Yes." I said, rolling to face her.

"How are you today?" She asked concerned.

"The same as a year ago. Broken, sad, angry, empty. Nothing's new." I groaned.

"Well I need to get to work.. Your tutor will be here at 10 as usual. I'm going to lock up the apartment, okay?" My mum said.

"Okay." I said.

"Oh! And don't forget to-"

"I know, mum. Just go to work." I groaned, covering my face with my blankets.

She sighed and closed my door.

I got up out of bed. I walked over to my closet and grabbed light washed ripped skinny jeans, and a light blue sweater that says 'I ♥ NY'. My computer started making noise so I looked at it.

Video Call AlliBoo♥

I smiled and accepted it.

"Hey A--" I stopped when I actually saw Cody...

"Cody?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows.

"H-Hey... Wow, you have gotten really skinny... NO! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to- I-"

"It's fine. Um- how are you?" I interjected.

"Um.. Good, and you?" He asked giving me a smile. It wasn't a true smile because he wasn't smiling with his eyes too, but I'm not going to say anything about it.