Can I Be The Only Hope For You Because You're The Only Hope For Me

Dan's pov

What has happened to us I thought to myself how could we have become so distant, I mean when we would be together I would feel loved and wanted but now I can't and I don't blame him, if he doesn't want me or love me anymore or even want to see my horrendous face, I would feel the same towards me if I were him, But I still love him and I always will. I heard the front door . I got up from my bed and walk into the kitchen. I notice a piece of paper on the counter and read it

I'm going to the north for 6 weeks

Well at least he told me this time instead of just leaving and showing up 3 weeks later like he did last time I just sighed, I hate all of the silence. I just want to call him mine again but if I try that now I'll probably push him further away from me. Since I am in the kitchen I should probably eat something considering I haven't ate anything proper since 2 days ago, never mind I will get it later. I left the kitchen and went to the "existential hallway" as I call it in my and I was contemplating lying down face first like how I portray what I do when having an existential crisis but decided not to because this is the real world and doing that is just to make it funnier and there is nothing funny about feeling unwanted/unloved from the person you will do anything to be with and make them happy. I went back into my room and shut the door, I grabbed my laptop and went on twitter. I regretted it completely. Some of our fans started to notice something weird between us and they weren't wrong, they where tweeting things like :

"@DANISNOTONFIRE, @AMAZINGPHIL: are you guys in a fight?"

"@AMAZINGPHIL: DID DAN DO SOMETHING WRONG?"

" @DANISNOTONFIRE: did you and Phil break up?"

"@AMAZINGPHIL: did you move back up to the north with your parents?"

" @AMAZINGPHIL, @DANISNOTONFIRE: are you two still friends?"

"@DANISNOTONFIRE: do you HATE Phil?"

"@AMAZINGPHIL: Do you hate Dan?"

"@DANISNOTONFIRE: WHAT DID YOU DO TO PHIL YOU FUCK UP? YOU RUINED OUR INNOCENT BALL OF SUNSHINE, FUCK YOU MEME FAG."

That last tweet really got to me. They're right, I am a fuck up. I can't do anything right. I couldn't even keep my problems to my self and now the phandom has realized that there is something going on between us because of my body language. Why can't I be a good actor and hide my body language. Now he's definitely not gonna wanna talk to me now. Just then I got a Dm from Phil, this has been the first time we communicated in at least 5 days so I instantly started to feel better. I read it,

"UM, sorry to bother you but did you tweet anything about our friendship?"

"No, why? are you okay?" I asked playing stupid but I know what's going on

"Um some of are fans are starting to worry about our friendship but I believe you didn't say anything but okay"

"yeah so how's the north, are you doing well?" I ask him nervous of his answer

"Sorry but I have to go and I might stay longer than six weeks I haven't deiced yet so, bye Daniel"

He completely avoided any conversation with me. I started to type a response but then he messaged me this

"Oh and please for get about us and what happened between us from 2009 to the summer of this year (2012), and please don't talk about our friendship in videos or just on the internet in general because it is my personal business and I DON'T want people to know about private stuff and I want you to get out of my business/ private stuff as well thank you. Yeah please let me be for now I will text or call you if I need you but right know I don't need you so, Good Bye Mr.Howell"