Totally different, yet completely the same.

Chapter 5

Logan's POV

After Josh and I left the kitchen we ended up hanging with the rest of the team in the living room, while half of them were playing bear pong and the other half were sitting in a circle passing around god knows what. I some how have managed to stay away from that all these years with out anyone ragging on me. I guess with being who I am and who my friends are everyone figured I always did do all of that so they never had to bug met to do it.

So whenever, whatever they passed around got to me I just try and stall or make them laugh changing the subject and then just pass it along and no one ever notices. Which leaves me a lot of time to sit here and think..

Ever since I left Sophia in the kitchen I could not stop thing about how I was such an ass and why I have to care so much about what everyone else thinks. Maybe if I didn't care so much about my reputation things could be different. Now I will probably never speak to her again.

"Hello?? Earth to Logan! What the hell man we've said your name about 30 times, watcha thinkin' about? Man, you must be realllly gone." Josh yells in my face slurring every word, and I shake my head bringing myself back to reality. I decide to just laugh and play it off as he thinks, "Yeah man sorry, I totally wasn't paying attention." He buys it and laughs back at me "It's fine man, I get it. We were just trying to say that we were thinking about heading out and going back to my place if you wanted to come. My parents are gone for the weekend and me,  Alex, Jake, and Steven all have girls to bring home as you can see, and who ever else shows up, shows up." He laughs and points to the boys who have girls sitting on their laps and quickly adds before I can respond "so I'll see you there?" I honestly don't really feel like going but what else is there to do? "Uh.. Yeah sure man, lemme just go find some chick real quick, you can leave now and I'll meet you there."  He stands up and pats me on the back and yells walking out the door "Great, see ya man!" At times like this I am glad I drive myself to these things.

Once they leave I decide to take a quick lap around the house in hopes to see Sophia, because I'm sure as hell not getting with some random, and it's not like I am by any means in a rush to get to the 'after party' anytime soon. But sadly after a bit of searching she is no where to be found, she must have left which I should probably be doing I guess.

Ya know maybe something could happen between us, if I just man up for once. Which I doubt will ever happen because I've been like this for so long, I don't think I could change, even if I wanted to. But if I really do want to, the first thing I need to do is 'break up' with Sierra, not that we were ever anything serious, because I know she goes and hooks up with other guys all the time, just because I wont go and have sex with her. I guess we are just 'together' to say that each of us is dating the most popular girl and boy of the school, and again, everything is always for show.  

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Walking outside and finally being able to breath the fresh air and not feel so claustrophobic is so relieving and I have a short walk to my car seeing as there was a million cars here when we showed up and I had to park a ways down the street. It's not so bad though, its kind of nice. Once I get  in my car I decide not to take the time to connect my phone to the Bluetooth and to turn the regular radio on quietly in hopes to get rid of this headache from that god awful music they had playing inside.

I'm not even half a mile from the house and I see someone just walking alone down the street, who in their right mind would do that this late at night alone. It's a girl I think but I cant make out who it is because it is a bit foggy, but I decide to slow down a little bit incase whom ever this is, is dunk and they don't just jump out in front of my car. Only when I finally pass the person I realize who it is, but my brain doesn't completely process it until I'm a bit past her. "Holy shit.." I say aloud to myself. I automatically stop the car and sit there for a minute and think.

I am probably scaring the shit out of her just sitting here, because she has no idea who it is, hell I don't even think she knew who I was when I backed into her and made her spill her drink on herself, she probably thought I was just another drunk jock messing around. That's besides the point though, Why is she out here walking alone and where is she going? If I get out to talk to her she'll probably think I'm a freak, and if I drive away now she'll never know who it was but if I do that, I am once again digging that hole just a bit deeper. By the time I look out the rearview mirror she is a lot closer to my car than expected, so I decide to start driving in reverse to meet her. Hell, no ones around, no one will ever have to know except me.

After I get to her I role my window down and we make eye contacts, she looks completely shocked and I instantly and uncontrollably lose everything I was going to say and begin to stutter with my words. "H-hey.. uhh why are you walking alone?" God I probably sound like an idiot. She just roles her eyes and with so much attitude says, "Why does it matter?" She has such a beautiful voice and is so confident in herself, it's amazing. She always was sassy, even when we were young and I would see how she would stand up for not only herself, but her friends as well. "uh.. You shouldn't be walking alone in the dark. Where are you going? I can give you a ride.." I blurt out without realizing what I just said until after the words came out of my mouth. She prolly thinks I'm really weird now, a random guy offering her a ride at 12pm, she's a lot smarter than that. If only she knew. 

She is quiet for a minute but eventually answers with a little sarcastic chuckle, "like hell. I'm not getting in the car with you, you were just smashed 20 minutes ago, and plus I'm already where I need to be." pointing to the bus stop across the street and walking straight in front of the car causing me to slam on the breaks. Fuck no she's not riding that bus, you know who rides the bus this late at night? Drunk, old perverted men that's who and they are not going any where near here, not that she couldn't stick up for herself because we all know that's not a problem. So no not happening, I will carry her to the car if I have to. 

I pull my car over and hop out following behind her and I suddenly feel a bit more comfortable with her, maybe it's because I'm so nervous about her riding the bus I don't realize that I am actually speaking to her. "You know I wasn't drunk, I don't drink" I say to her from the middle of the street as I walk to the side walk. She turns around and faces me with her arms across and she couldn't possibly look anymore attractive, and then says with a laugh "righttt cuz that's real believable, nice try." sarcastically once again, I'm quick to respond this time "I'm serious I really don't" there is silence for a split second and then I add quietly "never have.." I don't know why I fell so embarrassed about that, maybe it's just the affect she has on me.

She just roles her big brown eyes once again and sits down on the bench, crossing her legs. I have to convince her to come with me, she is NOT riding that bus. If I have to leave me car stranded here and ride it with her, I will. So I try again, "come on, you're not riding the bus, I'll bring you home." She is quiet for a minute and I'm praying she'll agree. "You don't even know me, you've never even talked to me a day in your life, and we both know you would drop dead before being seen with me in public. So I don't know what you're trying to do here, but you can stop and leave." I should have known it wasn't going to be that easy. After I process what she said I begin to feel really bad for the part about her thinking I would rather die then be with her, damn she most definitely does not know how badly I would die to be with her.  Unfortunately though, she does make a point, I do care too much about my ego.

 I decide to just not answer any of the questions directly and just go with "that's not true.." quietly, hopefully she doesn't know which part I was pointing to, but she's quiet for a second and I begin to panic so to stop her from going deeper into thought about what I said I quickly add, "and I am just trying to be nice, I feel bad for making you spill your drink on yourself," which is true because I did ruin her shirt, but I am also so glad I did because if I never did, none of this would be happening right now. I continue "it's cold, and the bus wont be here for another 20 minutes. Please just let me take you home."

She looks at be for a bit and I assume she's considering it, so I give her a minute to think. Finally she makes this completely overly dramatic yet wonderful sighing noise and slowly gets off the bench, "Fine." Thank god. I cant help my stupid smile from coming across my face, so I just quickly turn around and head off to my car.

If only this car ride could last forever.