Don't Forget

Do you ever just feel empty? Like you are missing your soul and its on the other side of the world?

Well I do, all the time. I'm alone and tired and bored. Most of the people that I care about either walked out of my life or had to travel away for work or University. Don't get me wrong, I still have friends round about me to keep me going and I'm really thankful for them but there is one person I need around me all the time and he's not here anymore.

He's away in America being all successful and famous and I'm pretty sure he's forgotten all about me. I just want his hugs, to smell his aftershave, to ruffle his hair, to have him hold my hand when I'm ill or when I'm worried. I just want Niall back. I want him here with me.

Yes I know what you're thinking, yes I mean Niall Horan from One Direction. To me, he was always beautiful. Before the braces, before all the muscles. I always thought he was perfect.

He was genuinely the most amazing person I've ever met in my entire life. He saw past all of my imperfections and my flaws and saw me for who I really was. A Scottish girl trying to make a name for herself in the big world. A girl who was frightened and scared of large crowds, a girl who's cheeks burned with the slightest touch from his warm hands, a girl who had a difficult life and struggled daily to realise she was good enough. He noticed all these things because he paid attention. He helped me to believe in myself. He taught me it was okay to be different. He taught me to love myself, because he loved me too.

Well at least he said he did.....