It's late night
I wish you already fall asleep
And dreaming about things
While I'm here still awake
Thinking.
Thinking about how and why
About life, love, everything...
How life is so hard to through
and sometimes I wish I could skip to the happy parts
How hard for me to be with someone
who will accept me just the way I am
How people treat me bad
when I did everything they want
even it hurt myself almost all the time
Why life is so unfair
Why everything happened to me
Why people not happy seeing me happy
Why I'm scared all the time
And all those hows and whys on my mind
But it doesn't matter
It means nothing
Maybe you don't want to hear that
Maybe you're tired to hear
But I wish I could make you understand
But sometimes I don't know how
Or I have bad feelings when I was going to tell you
Or you'll just walk away after I told you
All those mixed up feelings and thoughts
That makes me don't want to tell you, at the end
I wish someone knew about what's going on
I wish someone realised that
I wish someone wanted to hear me
I wish.. I wish.. I wish...
I'd better stop expecting something that will never happen
-Dec 30th 2015; 3.44 AM-
AnnShav.