Broken

Chapter 13

Warning long chapter :))

Harry looked up at me, with a face so emotionless, it was to the point where i got nervous, and wanted to run, despise the feelings that hung low in my stomach. The ones where, I felt I might both throw up and the ones where I felt i cold run ten miles without stopping. I didn't look at his eyes, to know he was disappointed. Instead i looked at the cafeteria, where everyone was staring, others like Niall, left the cafeteria.

The food did not feel well in my stomach, my stomach started turning, making me feel like i might throw up. Oh no. I shut my eyes tightly and heard footsteps, when i released my eyes open, Harry was gone, out of sight.

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"Louis?", I asked.

"Yeah"

"Why doesn't Harry date?"

We were sitting at the cafeteria, where I was previously sitting before I kissed Harry. All the guys were there except Niall, I didn't know where he was at, nor when I will see him.

Louis looked up at me, "I don't know. Every Time I ask he gets pissed like I kicked his dick", he laughs.

"Oh."

"Yeah."

That was what the lunch consisted of. Me, asking questions, Louis being kind enough to answer them, and some people making jokes here and there. Many girls, I noticed, stared at Louis like he was an angel sent from heaven. Others looked at Liam, like he was a superhero, and many looked at Niall, like he was a Calvin Klein model\angel. Zayn, was a little mysterious. Girls giggle when they looked at him. Me, the girls looked at me like I was some rock in the dirt, that was stepped on one hundred times.

"Hey Liam", a girl murmurs.

I look up to see a brilliant girl, with a few textbooks in her hand, and light brown hair. Her eyes were almost caramel, but not yet there. She was petite. She had straight teeth, that were brighter than my future. I shifted uncomfortably as I stared at the goddess that stood before me.

"Monica!", he said happily. She sat down next to him. They started laughing and poking each other, I smiled.

"Hi I'm Monica!", she says.

"I'm Bostoyn"

"Nice to meet you. Omg you are so pretty", she says and smiles, showing her crinkles by her eyes.

"You too", I said. Liam was staring at her happily. He was in love.

I turned to talk to Louis, who seemed to be occupied with a Light brown haired girl. Her hair was covering her face, so I could not tell if she were pretty or not. She turned to face me and my heart stopped. A Victoria Secret model stood before me. I felt like was going to cry. She smiled at me and gave me a small wave she was so pretty and tall, but not taller than louis who seemed to tower over her a little. She had diamond earrings in, and she laughed a bunch.

Louis turned to look at me, "Bostoyn this is Grace, Grace this is Bostyn", he says blushing.

"You are beautiful", I say my eyes still wide.

She laughed, "No way not as gorgeous as you".

Monica chimed in, "You guys are so pretty omg"

"No way"
"Yes way"
"Do you see her"
"I wish I were you"

Liam interrupted our bickering first. "Guys! you are all hot in your own way", he said and pulled Monica to his side. "Yeah", Louis said kissing Grace's cheek. I stood there and hugged myself. Zayn smiled, as I looked at his direction, I saw Niall holding hands with a brunette girl, who might I say was cute. She smile and had a dimple on her left cheek.

I want to die. My insecurities fell below zero. Everyone was so perfect...

and im me.
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"Are you sure you don't want to come?", Monica asks for the hundredth time.

"Please", Grace begs.

"I don't know", I said.

Everyone was heading out to a party, and I did not feel like going to one...I just wanted to sit at home and eat ice cream, and cry.

"Okay, but text me if you want me to pick you up", Niall says. "Okay", I state.

And they left, Nikki, Nialls gf, came in with a tight white dress. She ran over me, she wore sneakers, instead of high heels. "Heyo im Nikki", she says and hugged me. "Hi! I'm Bostyn", I said happily. I liked these three girls and four guys. We were all eight people.

I hate the word squad so im not gonna say it but we were a close group of friends. A retarded, dysfunctional group of friends.

-Zayn Malik
-Louis Tomlinson
-Niall Horan
-Nikki
-Grace
-Monica
-and Me

They were my friends. My first friends. But they knew nothing about me. They only knew what lied within, not what out. They didn't know I cut, or that I was depressed, they don't know my past. Only Harry does. Harry knows.

They all start leaving. "Wait!", I shout. They turn around. "I'm coming", I said confidently.

They all started cheering and clapping as I got ready.

I went into the Dorm's walk in closet and grabbed my mini tight black dress. And my black heels. I stepped out to go to the bathroom, and brushed my hair. I didn't have enough time to straighten it. I quickly put on some concealer, and face powder. I then applied Chapstick, nude eyeshadow, thin eyeliner, and some mascara.

I stepped out. Everyone was sitting in a circle laughing. They all stopped when they saw me. There mouths made a small "o". I blushed. "YOU LOOK AMAZING", Nikki shouted.
"GOALS", Monica said.
"I DIED, OMG YOU ARE PERFECT", Grace gushed.

The guys just stared. I smirked. "Damn", Zayn said. Everyone nodded in agreement.

"Can we go im ready", I asked.
"Yes bitches let's go", Monica said doing a dance while walking out the door. Everyone followed behind as we stepped out. An adventure awaiting for us.

"We're on our way the mission of the day!", Louis begins.

"It starts when we say rocket", Niall follows.

"Rocket!", everyone shouts.

I laughed hysterically in the backseat of the car.

This is going to be a horrible ride.

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