Danielle (BWWM)

Zai

I swear I see her face everywhere in every black woman's face I see. It's like damn four years and I still can't get her out of my mind. I haven't been with anyone since Rae. I feel like I'm cheating on her and that's something I can't do. I love her just the same. She's probably moved on. But my little munchkin is probably out there too. Or maybe she was so mad at me she terminated her pregnancy. I have to know.

Ring
Ring
Ring
Ring
Ring

Come on Rae answer the-

"Hello?"

"Rae?"

"I'm sorry who is this?"

She sounded sweeter. This woman.

"Zai"

She kinda sighed like she was sad or overwhelmed.

"I'm sorry I have to go.."

"Wait Rae! Was it a boy or a girl?"

"What are you talking ab-"

"Rae'Elle! Don't play with me. I know you like the back of hand. I don't think you understand that your voice gets high-pitched and shaky when your lying. Is my child a boy or a girl?"

"Figlia"

Figlia? What I've always wanted. Mia figlia.

"Yeah Zai what you've always wanted. Little girls that have your eyes, my nose, and curly hair but sandy brown that gets lighter in the sun."

"Rae, can I see her?"

"Yeah she's been asking about her father. Her birthday is tomorrow. So get her something or she won't be so warm towards you. Her favorite color is mauve but the girl don't know it from purple if it punched her in the face. She loves volleyball although she can barely play. She likes to swim and she adores Mickey Mouse Club House. Her favorite character is Mickey, Donald, Minnie, and Toodles. She loves arts and crafts and salted caramel core ice cream."

"Just like her mother." I said aloud. She nose-laughed. Like when you say lol or lmfao but really you chuckle and that chuckle is actually just quick carbon dioxide coming out of your nose. Yeah one of those.

"Mia Bella I really wanna- "

"Look Zai I can't talk about us right now. Just be here tomorrow for your figlia and the rest of her life. She needs you Zai. And-"

"Do you need me Bella?"

"What?"

"Do YOU need me Bella?"

"No."

There she goes lying again. I need her too. She is the only woman I want to be with. So I'm going to be there for her and mia figlia. I have to be.

Time to go to my friends at Apple.