Lollipop Girl

The Stars The Moon part two

Chapter 7~ The Stars The Moon

Part Two~

Bubble point of View~

Hour Two~

          I was standing in front of that boy that rejected me. I could feel my whole body shaking uncontrollable anger. All he did was stand there and smile at me. Everything he said to me came back to mind. I could feel myself coming from under the stars and the moon light and back to the dark. The boy who would watch me die was putting me back under the dark light.

            The confidence I felt before was slowly disappearing. I felt so weak standing in front of this man. He took all the confidence away. I felt empty inside. I want to cry. I wanted to run away like the scare person I am. I wanted to cruel under a rock but my body would not let me. My body wanted me to face my fears. Something I do not think I can do again.

            I was scared that he might reject me again. Me who said I did not care if he did. I fell to the ground and cruel up into a ball. The stars the moon was once my safe heaven away from the pain. Now I think nothing is my safe haven from the pain. Will I die with this pain? I want to face my fears.

            Like I said before I want to become stronger. I want to become a new person but to do that I have to face this man. I wish I could just die. Then come back as a new person but even I know it not that easy. I will always be stuck in this circle of pain. No matter what I do I will always feel pain.

            Just because I feel pain should I cruel away? The man that made me feels this pain. Should I run away from him? Should I hope for death then face my fear? Should I leave everyone I love because of him? Should I go back to the darkness because of him? Should I let him leave me in the dark like my mother?

            No I should not let him do that to me. I will not leave the one I love. I will stay living under the stars and the moon light. He will not leave me in the dark like my mother. I will face my fear no matter what. I got up off the ground and face him.

“YOU DO NOT SCARE ME. I WILL FIND A DIFFFERENT MATE. I WILL NOT DIE BECAUSE OF YOU. I WILL LIVE ON. I WILL LIVE UNDER THE STARS AND THE MOONS LIGHT AN UNTIL IT IS BLOWN AWAY. I WILL NOT LIVE IN THE DARK. YOU WILL NOT LEAVE ME IN THE DARK NO MORE. I WIN AND YOU LOSE NOW LEAVE ME A LONE. I WILL HAVE YOU BEGGING ON YOUR KNEES TO TAKE ME BACK. I HAVE JUST REJECTED YOU. I WILL WATCH YOU DIE. I WILL NOT FEEL PAIN BECAUSE OF YOU. I WILL LIVE ON WITH EVERYONE I LOVE. I WILL NOT CRY NO MORE FOR YOU. I AM A NEW PERSON. I WILL LIVE AND YOU WILL DIE. I AM LEAVING YOU IN THE DARK. IN THE SHADOW OF MY HEART. I WILL TAKE EVERYTHING DEAR TO YOU. NOW LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE.” I yelled at the top of my lungs.

            The Star and the moon was all I need for now to move until I find my mate. Then we both can use each other to move on. Until then the stars and the moon are my home. I will not go back to the dark as long as I am under the stars and the moon light.     

“I will not live in fear anymore. I will live a happy life. I will be happy under the stars and the moon light.” I yell at everything.

I will not leave in pain.

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