This isn't really a poem.
But I wrote this to a guy.
Dear ____,
I'm sorry for being a bitch.
At: You
When: The past couple months.
Why: Unexplainable.
It just really pissed me of that you could hurt me so bad. I know you probably don't realize the effect you had and still have on me.
Yes, I am extremely mad at _____ but I cannot tell her that. I don't want to loose my best friend over some guy.
She's been there for me too many times before. I am upset that she choose you over our friendship and basic rules. But she fucked those up. So why should I listen to them either? Oh yeah. That's right. Because I CARE about her feelings and don't want her to be distraught like me.
I have liked you since 5th grade and you have never liked me.
Most people would forget and move on. But there's something about you that stops me from doing so. And I have yet to figure out what that is.
Maybe it's the fact that I can't have you. Wishing for something that'll never be. It pains me so much.
Or maybe it's how you walk, talk, laugh, smile, and just plain are you.
I don't want to say that I'm in love. Because that would be wrong. Why love someone who never has and never will like you?
"What is love if there's only one person in it?"
I'll tell you what it is: a lie.
Love is mysterious. It cannot be defined. It cannot be seen. It cannot be heard. But it can be felt.
If you can't see something does that make it not real? No. Of course not.
I don't so much hate you as that I am upset at you. You know I like you, yet you date my best friend.
Really? My best fucking friend?! That's kinda low.
A part of me wants to wake up and all of this just be a nightmare. Go back to the time when we were best friends. I liked you as a friend and you liked me as a friend.
But I messed that up when I admitted my feelings towards you.
I only admitted them because people kept harassing me, torturing me, and threatening me to tell you before I did. Sometimes I wish I'd never done that. But oh well.
Everything happens for a reason. Right? What was the reasoning behind that one?!
I will never trust a guy with my deep thoughts and feelings because of you. It's just too hard to trust them.
I have a few questions for you. If you ever do see this, which I hope you don't but if you do, can you answer these?
1- Why did you turn away and leave me when I said I liked you?
2- What is it about _____ that I don't have, besides beauty? Or is that all you see in her?
3- Did you know that you'd hurt me this bad?
4- Would you change your mind about me if I was pretty?
5- Why my best friend?
6- Do you enjoy making me feel this way?
7- Have you ever liked me? Ever.
8- Please don't answer number 7. Okay?
9- Did you know that you've put me to sleep numerous times from the tears I've cried over you?
10- Do you even care?
Sincerely,
_______
