Secrets of a goodgirl

Drama, and music.

Song- can't Blame a girl for trying

Natillys pov
After that eventful trip to Walmart, me and Noah didn't talk, he went to bed and I went to bed, but currently I am in my bed struggling for sleep, tomorrow I am going out with the girls to get our costumes, or at least search for costumes, Gabriella and zayin, Hana and zack are going as a date, funny how things turn out but I wonder- nock nock nock someone is out side my room at 2am? I walked out side to see Noah?
"What are you doing, awake at such hours?" I smiled but he didn't smile back.
"Can I come in, I want to talk to you." He said hesitantly.
"If you wanna talk, then let's go to my peaceful spot." I held his hand and dragged him to the roof. He looked at me then smiled.
"You are very different from other girls, wow this view is amazing, I have a question to ask a you, it's been on my mind all day." I knew what he was gonna ask, " what do you mean, when you said you lost your virginty not by will?" He looked at me in curiosity, I sighed, he looked at me and said " you have every rite not wanting to tell me, or trust me, but I will tell you a secret, I have never told anyone this, so I am kinda hoping you keep your mouth shut....." He looked at me with a look I have never seen before, it was sincere. I knew I couldn't tell him. I laid my head on his lap, I was looking at the stars.
"When I was a baby I was born 2 months early, I had missing organs" now I was sitting next to him looking at his eyes. "I had been destined to die, I had 7% chance of living, I lived though, the doctors fixed me up, I have fully recovered, but I had 5 years of my life suffering." I hugged him wow who new badass had a terrible childhood? "I am not forcing you to tell me what happened, but I would like to know." Oh what did I get my self into?
"I wish my story had such a happy ending, but it didn't, I want to tell you but promise me you won't tell, anyone? No matter what happens we don't tell each other's story ok"
Noah's pov
I don't know how I told her, I never told anyone about it, i wasn't going to tell anyone, but I knew Natilly is not one of them bitches, that will tell anyone, but the weird thing is that I felt like I can trust her "promise" I said looking in her eyes.
"When I was 9 I lost the privilege of being a virgin........no I did not get raped and then thrown on the street.... I wish that was what happened, but a guy from my family, I will not tell you who... " I looked at her, she was tearing up, I brought her head into my chest, where did all this nice person come? she continued.
"He told me he wanted to play a fake fighting game, he told me to put on his shorts, i said ok like any kid would......" More tears were streaming down her face. I pulled her closer.
"Is ok baby girl you can tell me anything."
"He told me his master move, I would have to put a blanket on my head, I agreed stupidly....... I wish I didn't I swear." She started to cry more and more so I told her to stop, she said she can do this.
"He used me, he used my innocence, he did it a couple more times, I didn't have a problem with it, I didn't think, I didn't know what he was doing, I was stupid so dumb how, why couldn't I think like what he is doing is practically raping me" I was so angry I would punch that bastard, I told her-
"I am glad I know the truth, you know, you are considered one of my friends now rite?" She looked at me and laughed.
"I am one of your friends now, or considered more that that?" She said continuing laughing.
"No never mind, we are barely friends, tomorrow we forget this ever happened, I don't date goody too-shoos. Bye person." And with that I left. She started crying what the fuck did I do? I just let her confess about being raped and then I left her?
Natilly pov
I don't believe I told him, the truth about me ugh I am so stupid, he lost all his charm he is just a jerk. I went downstairs and grabbed one cigarette, if you are wondering why I have cigarettes, it's because I always thought I might need one, I said I will only use it when, I am broken. Right now I just we wanted to Get my mind off everything, I started smoking one after the other, I smoked 3 cigarettes, I knew why people call it addictive but I had to stop there, I have to go shopping tomorrow.
***next day***
"Why do you smell like cigarettes?" Said Zara with an angry expression. I always wanted to smoke but she wouldn't let me, ever.
"I had a terrible day, and I decided to smoke, i don't see why people like it? It's disgusting " she let out a sigh of relive. I lied about the not liking smoking, as I never told her the truth about the rape story.
"Ok, smoker, I am gonna kill, you. Now get changed we have to leave. The girls are outside." I went,I'm pulled the least expensive thing from my closet, I got my credit card and left.
"Sup bitch!" Said Gabriella and Hana in the same time, I smiled and hugged both of them. The car ride was filled with loud music, and singing girls, I wonder why my driver hasn't quit yet.
As we entered the mall, we found lot of Halloween clothes, some were too slutty , and some were too sainty (my amazing English). Hana and Gabriella decided to be zombie nurses, it was a really good idea, because they want to be doctors when they grow up, though their outfits weren't the same they were from 2 different shops. Zara decided to be a sexy pirate witch. But me I was starting to lose hope, so I called my moms cloths designer and asked for help, she said she knows the dress. I trusted her and with that we found shoes and that was it we went back home, I slept like a baby.
***Friday****
Me and Noah's relationship was cool like we were frienmies I think that's how I would put it. Nothing really happened throughout the week, but we did have an interesting music lesson.
Flashback
I passed a note to Jason in music class-
Jason, I don't want to do music, like we know what to do, I can do it right now, without a single flaw.
Then I saw mr Andrews snatch the paper off hand oh god, I don't mind him doing this in any other class but music? The class I have with Noah and his friends? God, I go to church every Sunday, I go to the orphanage and help, I donate money every month, what did. I do to deserve this?
Smoke? That stupid voice in my head said, ugh you into what I don't care let's see were this goes.
"Class, it has come to my attention that ms Rangers says that she can be assessed today, and she thinks this class in boring, rite mrs Rangers?" He asked, and I did the worst thing you can do, nod!
"Ok mrs Rangers, if you sing me a song and hit all the rite notes then you will gat an A+ and if you do bad in this assessment then you have to remove the gum from under the tables of this class, ok?" He asked?
"Yup sounds great to me, mr I want to sing... Can't blame a girl for trying. And Jason will play the guitar, if I do win he also gets an A+ ok?" I ask
"Fair" he said, the hole class gasped at how I was acting. Everyone new me now because of the party so people had smirks on their faces.
"Here I am again, the same old situation
Why does the guy thing have to be so complicated?
I should have played it cool, instead I made a fool
Oh, the things I do

'Cause I'm young and I'm dumb
I do stupid things when it comes to love
And even if I always end up crying
Well, you can't blame a girl for trying

Oh, oh
Oh, oh
No, you can't blame a girl for trying
Oh-oh-ooo-oo

I should've shut my mouth, I could've kept it quiet
I might have freaked him out 'cause I was so excited
But I just couldn't wait, I took a leap of faith
Oh, the things I say

'Cause I'm young and I'm dumb
I do stupid things when it comes to love
And even if I always end up crying
Well, you can't blame a girl for trying- I continued singing by the time I got to the end, everyone was staring at me, what did I do wrong? Was my voice that bad? I looked at everyone and said "how was I, do I have to clean gum?"
"No babe you were stunning" and then everyone was clapping, I turned around to see Noah being the one making the comment of course, it had to be him. Mr Andrew looked at me then Jason.
"Congratulations, you got A+." After that the class went nuts. The word spread around, strangers were congratulating me, all I did was say thanx. I got home, did my homework, prepared my cloth and makeup, putting them in a bag sincere the boys and the girls are gonna be their in the morning to fix up the theme and put the food and all, so we will change there. Goodnight me.