Secrets of a goodgirl

Ego level: touched the sky

"Natilly, you've been asleep for 12 hours wake up" I looked up, I feel dizzy, with a sharp pain on my forehead.
"Ugh, five more minutes." My eyes widen as I felt a huge amount of wetness on my face, what the actual fuc*k?
" I swear, whoever just did that, will be punched." I realize the a hole cup of nearly ice water has been poured on me.
"Oo I am sooo scared!" Says Noah.
"Dude, you will regret that!" Says Jason. That's all it takes for me to punch his jaw, little does he know I have been trained.
"OWCH, what the he'll Natilly?!." Now I am fully awake smirking. I bet no one suspected that I am no good girl, oh and about the smoking thing, it wasn't my first time, I tried to start over, but then again I know ether karma or my past will catch up with me.
I looked around the room, we are still at that party place. I am still in my dress, though it's morning. All my friends are in the room.
"Hey guys, can I have a moment with Jason?" Brandon and Noah glare at him. They nod and leave.
"Boss, we are in trouble."
"Shhhh don't call me that So loud!"
"Next Monday's delivery, is hell important. We are earning 100 grand. But you need to fight today so we can earn some cash. To get weapons."
"What happened to nail?" I asked
"He was killed by his second in command." I frowned, doesn't that idiot understand what I meant by 'don't ever try to mess with me again? Jason gulped.
"Natilly there is one more thing......ugh.....umm ...... How do I say this?......"
"Spit it"
"Max is the second in command."
"What the actual fûck?" I hear three knocks on the door.
I see Sean and Ezra. "Hey boss, you are officially the new gang leader." I owas avoiding that for the past few years.
"Hey, I am a completely different person now. I was avoiding the situation, but you know what? I am sick of this, let's end this now, and for good." Sean stares and then walks out. Trying not to get the attention of the people waiting outside. The next thing I know all of them are in the room.
"Are you okay?" -Zara
"Yeah." I sigh. "You guys I am going back home, Noah your gonna lock up, guys can you please help him clean up," the all nodded. I walked out feeling uneasy. something feels very wrong.
****night time****
I wore my black sports bra, leggings. Temporary died my hair black and wore black lenses. If you didn't know I was wearing this, you wouldn't recognize me. Today I am supposed to fight ksm I have no idea what it stand for but ya. Everyone here knows me as black. The most feared girl. I used to kill and do shit that I am not proud of. Tuff. You are gonna see a part of nat that you have not seen before.
I went outside, Sean came in his black hummer. To my second home. It was bigger than my other house. And trust me that one is huge.
"You know boss you have two different faces." I knew exactly what he was talking about.
As we got into the ring, he ref started talking "hello ladies and gentlemen, today we have our 3 time winner, KSM, and the unlucky person fighting him today is— umm excuse me I think we have a mistake, black is not a person anymore." Everyone went quite, from a huge noisy Crowd to an exam hall.
"Hello, um are you black?"
"Yea." He looked at me with wide eyes, he became as pale as a ghost. The reason I am feared of is because when I was 13 I could beat up men who are 3 times my size and age.
"Umm, black is back!!!!" The crowed went insane.
"1,2,3"
"Hello little baby girl. Ready to get your ass kicked?" He smirked, I made a mental note to say I told you so, when we finish, just to multiply my ego.
"You wish. The only ass kicking you will see is me dumping your ass on the floor."
"Feisty, lets begin." He threw a punch I dogged it. It was with his right hand, he has a cut on his other hand, he has been doing marshal arts, from the way the threw the punch. He is left handed and his weaknesses are his face ribs and left foot. Funny how you can crack the person with one move. I am getting tiered.
I slyly stepped behind him, twisted his left hand until he gave up.
"And the winner is, BLACK"" whoooo" the crowed went mental.
"I told you so little girl." If he was not on the floor, with possibly a broken hand, he would have hit me. Haha if he could.
(Ego status: touched the sky)
I walked out of the ring, put on my hoodie, grabbed my money and headed to the car.
"Good job" said Ben. "I am gonna take you home." I smiled. Ben is my 3 In command.

****in front of the doorstep****

"Why are you home so late?" Asked Noah.
"It's non of your bloody business." Ben already took me to home no2 for me to change.
"Well we are sorry if we care!" Said Brandon.
"I am a capable girl, the last time I checked u are not my mom or dad." I smirked.
"Oh well let's go Brandon, clearly she does not notice when people are caring for her, considering, we are the only people in the house, your sister is crashing by a friends house and your bro too, knowing you, you don't care." Ok that's it Noah.
"You don't know shït About me, I am sorry if I walked into your perfect littwle life, but shït happens." I slammed the door, went to the bathroom and I grabbed one of my blades and started cutting again. Old wounds can never fully heal. I opened the tub, I sat their just thinking of reasons I should die.
•I am no help to anyone
•I am a complete mess
•white Is coming for me, he will probably kill everyone I know and love
•I have too much expectations
Cut the crap Natilly, some people love you
No they don't
Yea they do, the boys wouldn't stay up waiting for no reason.
Well ya they are practically living in my house
What ever floats your boat bitçh
Wow my subconscious called me a bitch. Says a lot.
Ok now that I think of it I should not commit suacide. Yet. But that does not mean I can't smoke to death, yeah good idea Natilly. Let's clean up the blood and go upstairs and smoke.
I think the glory of smoking is that you clear all your thoughts, and actually start thinking strait. Well now I am thinking about the weed plants growing in my garden, no one knows about those, but to be honest it is the smartest place to put them. How will I kill white? And yea I kill, so much for being a normal teenager.