Awakening • Kamigami No Asobi Fanfic

We Meet Once Again

I didn't know if Zues was just going senile, or that he was completely over his head in guilt. It may just have been Jesus, though. Being the one who always forgives and forgets, he's just too damn weak– I didn't get how he could be the best and powerful god, and not me.

I steady my posture, and lift my chin up high as I walk confidently (like a boss) around the school that was as unkown to me as the other buildings that wasn't here 1000 years ago. I admitted that I was kinda scared of Zues in his big broad, scary form– but when he's in his normal tiny human god form, he's adorable. I mean, I could just punch him softly and he'd be tumbling down the hill as if he was Jill in that annoying nursery's song.

"Where is it?" I mumble in frustration as I turn to the right corner. This school was huge, like seriously huge. It could even be a palace. God, what if it is a palace? Could Zues actually be tricking me to get executed? I seriously couldn't trust that guy– I mean, I killed his brother and I don't even remember his name. But this couldn't be a palace. No gaurds with shiny army showed up for me to kill them. Like I could anyway, my powers grew more weak every single day during those whole decades I was abandoned.

I heard laughter from afar, and strange familiar voices. Curiousity killed the cat, but I was immortal. I walked closer to the voices that streamed down my ears, and I knew immediantly who it was.

"I'm sorry, I guess I might've been a little too forceful on her– but I can't help it!"

...Balder. It was Balder. I remember this scent (weird right?), and this voice– especially his golden hair that flowed through the wind as if it was some kind of stupid and dramatically movie. I always loved that. His hair, not the movie.

When did I last see his face? Of course I knew that, 1000 years ago, duh. But it was rhetorical.

I tried forgetting them in all those long horrible years, but I failed badly. Who could forget someone they loved dearly?

I felt the itch to leap into his arms, but I couldn't, obviously. Why the hell is he here? With...with Apallon? Jesus. How the hell am I going to get past these horrendous emotions that was left unkown to anyone? I wasn't planning on telling them since I wasn't good with these kind of stuff. I wish I could overpower my every emotion, instead of being strong physically– or maybe just both.

"We all love her, right? Shouldn't I at least try to win, since this is a competition?" 

"Do you think she'd fall in love with someone who's too forceful? I don't mean to be rude, but I hate seeing her scared. You know she hates being weak," Apallon said worriedly as he pats Balder's back that I once touched.

My heart felt like shattering into a thousand pieces. I'm not a god damn idiot, the her they're talking about is not me– and that sounded wrong. It sounded like it needed me in it, like I wanted it to be me. And I did. I knew that somehow they'd end up falling for another person in all these 1000 years but...I just couldn't accept it. I was dead jealous, and I was admitting it. I could just yell it out for everybody if they'd love me back, but that would be stupid. If only loving someone could be so easy, cause its god damn hard. Who would love someone like me?

"M-M-MIO?!"

I whipped around as I searched my surroundings, and there he was, gulping his 'last breath' like I was some sort of freak who wanted to eat (Well, probably I do). Maybe because I really am, because I'm selfish and unlovable. And yes, I am. Excruciatingly selfish. I loved all of them, and kept them all locked in my heart like they all actually belong to me. But that's stupid– Can't I just love one man like a normal goddess? I can't just hog all of them. Especially–

Loki.

I knew that he'd never have the heart to fall for anyone– even if I was more evil than him– he wouldn't love anyone. And I loved him.

I could sense that the other two were standing right behind me, and I could almost see their faces that planted against their horrid expressions. But I didn't want to look at them– at anybody. I felt so foolish.

"L-Loki, Balder, Apallon...um...hey. We meet once again, h-huh?"

To Be Continued.