Awakening • Kamigami No Asobi Fanfic

I Missed You

"H-How did you...when did you...what did you...–E-EH?!"

I shifted my eyes from him to the wall every minute. He did change alot– he looked more manly yet still young, and his firey red beemed the most out of him. I didn't even know if I could handle this change, or if I ever will. I wonder if he could outpower me now, though. Cause that would suck alot. I liked being the best in power out of all of them because they looked up to me. And yeesh, I know I sound crazy, but I can't help but want them to look at me, to notice my every single detail, and I wish they actually did. But how can they notice me? They don't even take me as a cute and pretty girl. Maybe I did get a little too soft...that's probably the reason why I can feel my magic decreasing everyday.

They wouldn't look up to me anymore, but notice every single mistake.

"W-Well!" I forced the sparkly yet painful tears into my eyes, even if I did want to cry and tell them how I feel. But I really didn't want them to see me like this– hopeless.

I shoved an awkward laugh out through throat and kept my eyes calm and cool, as if nothing in my mind is shaking.

"You guys seem to have grown up while I was gone. Balder, you grew your hair." I turned
to face toward him, but quickly moved on to Apallon's gaze once he looked worriedly at me. I didn't want to see that either– I felt like a creep.

"Apallon, you look more buff– b-but still not as buff as me!" I teased.

Loki must have been reading love novels, and watched opera all these years. I think I could even hear him sniff.

"You, Loki." I said confidently as I pinned my pointer finger to the middle of his chest. "You're more emotional."

They must've taken that by huge surprise, but I walked straight out of the scene without any tears fallen, but I knew he noticed– they all noticed. I mean, how couldn't they? My voice was shaking, my teeth were clattering, and I just looked disastrous. But I just lied to myself that they actually didn't. I'd rather live a lie rather than be this.

I scurried off to a huge school garden with my tears finally let out and run through.

I tried to run out of a back entrance– regretting that I even came back, but I tripped on a flower. A daisy.

"SERIOUSLY?! A FLOWER? A STUPID FREAKIN FLOWER?!" I cried as I kicked it idiotically like it was my worst nightmare. I was such a fool– and it was all because of them. I hate them. But I knew that I couldn't actually hate them– I mean, they're so lovable. But I hate my emotions. I wanted to tear it to shreds until its all gone.

"I heard something..."

"...What? I didn't. Maybe its just your imaginations."

"No....its not. Its coming from over here."

I cursed under my breath as I stood up and wiped my tears away. God, I wish I'd bring a mirror. That's the only makeup I'd need for a girl. I didn't even know if it was makeup, but I knew it just made you look fake.

I hastily patted away the dirt on my armor, and confidentally lifted my chin up once again.

"Takeru, Tsukito– W-What's up? Its been a long time, huh?" I stammered as my teeth clattered together as if I was some idiot in the snow.

They stood dumbfounded in shock, I could even imagine what they're saying inside their head; Why is she here? What happened to her? Why is she so ugly? But I waited long enough to wait and hear them say it.

I grimaced as Takeru took his rough hands on my shoulder, and shook it wildly.

"Why are you here?! What?! Did you trespass?! Seriously, Mio. Zues will kill–"

"Zues won't kill me because first, I'm stronger, and second, he invited me because this tarnished world needs me."

He took a second to gulp all the information in, and convincingly looked at his damned brother. I rolled my eyes as Tsukito shrugged like nothing is happening– God, I don't even know why I fell for him.

"You don't miss me, huh? Well, I don't even get our friendship," I sighed. Even if I hardly believed that sentence, they both looked hurt; Takeru grit his teeth and Tsukito clenched his fists– But they didn't say anything. So maybe it was just coincidental, and I hated thinking that it always was– because everything was. I had to let go of the thought that no one is ever going to love me back.

"Fine, I'll be going since you guys– all of you, don't want me here," I mumbled.

Takeru opened his mouth to say something– and I really wanted to know what, but Hades came stomping in, in frustration.

He looked shock, which wasn't a surprise anymore– but he was Hades for god sake. Mother also considered marrying him since he was the closest to the gods of scheme– and I actually didn't mind the idea– but he would think its silly.

"M-Mio...what are...you doing here?" He gasps.

I rolled my eyes and tried to leave through the back entrance, but I felt a pain that sheared throughout my body. I slowly came to realize that I was already in the ground– gasping for air— broken.

"MIO!!!" They all shouted in sync. Tsukito held me in his arms, and everyone gathered around me. I felt foolish, but I also couldn't help but feel happy that they're actually worrying about me.

"This is all my fault...I got to close and ruined you....I-I'm sorry..." I heard Hades curse under his breath.

I felt like grimacing, but instead, I smiled.

"I...I...love...–"

To Be Continued.

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Will they ever know who she was talking about? XD