It's The City Of The Flower

Chapter 3

I sit down. Again.

"This isn't a dream?" I ask.
"No," Jin starts to say.
"Cause it sure feels like it!" I scream.
"Shh." Jin whispers.

Someone is coming down the hall.

"What's the commotion?" A sleepy Suga asks.
"Nam woke up." Jin says.
"Well can I go tell J-Hope?" Suga asks pointing to the only bedroom in our dorm. "He has been worried sick all night."
"Go get him." Jin says.

I sit there motionless. My stomach grumbles.
"Jin, can you make me some" I say getting interrupted.
"Rap Monster?" J-Hope stands there in the hallway.
"I am okay bud." I say.
"Phew" he says sitting down next to me.
"Dont you want to go back to bed?" I ask.
"No" he says. "I am content."

We sit there quietly.
4:30 turns into 5. 5am into 6am. Hobi's head resting on the counter. Jin staring at the clock.

"You said you wanted me to make you something? Jin finally says after an hour and a half.
"Yeah, could you?" I ask.

He makes me food, and I eat it.
It's another hour before the others make their way into the kitchen.

"How ya doin'?" Jimin asks.

I now know what it feels like to still be breathing, but being dead at the same time. It sucks life out of you, but not all of it.

I get back up to stretch. It's all fuzzy. Everything that has happened. It's strange.

"I called the Airport, and they fit you in." Jin says.
"Oh.." I say. "I need you guys though."
"We are on the flight after" Suga smiles.
"Thanks guys" I whisper.

I get onto the plane, and I can only think of my family.
My mom, dad, younger sister.
What they are going through.
Well, at least my dad and sister.
I know what my mom went through. Well, the death part. Not how.

The departure for Ilsan will begin soon, please enjoy the snacks from the snack cart during the wait.

I don't even want to eat. Everyone keeps staring, and I want to scream.

"Pretzels?" A ladies voice asks.
I turn my head. "What?"
"Oh, you're Rap Monster" she whispers.
"Namjoon actually." I nod.
"My mistake, I'm very sorry for you loss" she says bowing.
"Isn't everyone" I say while tears weld in my tear ducks.

I am sick of hearing the words, I am so sorry for your loss.
They burn in the back of my throat.

*ding ding*
Yah, hyung, We are here for you. Fighting! -Tae

I put my phone back down. Not worth it. I close my eyes and I eventually fall asleep.

"Sir, we are in Ilsan." She says gently. "I need you to get off."
"Oh yes, sorry" I say.

I get off the plane, but I swear I see a familiar face.

Mom?

A lady, black curly hair, short, homly, starts walking away.

"Mom!" I scream, chasing after her. "Mom!"

She kept walking.

"YAH! Eomma!" I scream louder, tears falling.

I grab onto the lady.

"Yah!" She screams. "What is wrong with you?"
I pause. "I... I.. I thought you were someone else."

I sink to the floor. Everyone staring.
"Eomma..." I whimper. "Eomma..."

"Sir, are you alright?" A security guard asks me.
"No..." I whisper. "Far from."
"Okay, well, you are in people's way. I need you to move." He says impatiently.
"Yah, Joonie, come on," Suga says picking me up.

I stand up. Someone familiar stands in front of me.

"Appa?" I ask numbly.
"Oh, Namjoon," My father says.
"How did she die?" I say bursting into tears.
"It was on the news, she was stabbed." He whimpered.
"Mr. Kim, weren't you a suspect?" Jungkook squeaks.
"I had an alibi, I was grocery shopping and came home to, my precious angel, dead on the floor" he says frowning.

That was a relief to hear that. That my dad didn't kill her.

"Let's get you home" my father says.
"I would like that" I sniff.

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We are on our way to my home, and to see the flowers, to smell the air, to see families, it makes me a bit more happy to be home. I needed this.
We go down continuous streets, but it has only been 5 minutes.

"We are here" Taehyung says stopping he car.

I jump out of the car, and I see our front door blocked off with police tape.

"Yah! Let me in!" I scream ripping the tape off. The door locked.
"Rapmons..." He begins.
"It's Namjoon!" I shout.
"Namjoon, stop." He says.

I can't tell who it is restraining me.

"Hey, Namjoon, it's me, Jin." A calming voice says.

I stop.

"This is the murder scene, did you not realize this? We just had to show you." He begins. "We have to stay somewhere else."
"I don't want to stay anywhere else!" I scream.
"Yah, you can't stay here" Suga says.

Jin shoots him a dirty look.

"Suga, you have to be more understanding." Jin whispers harshly.
Suga pulls on his shirt. "I will try."

"Let's go" Hoseok says hesitantly.
"Hobi, too soon." Jin says.
"No, I am fine. We should go." I say quietly.

Was I fine? No. They know I am not. Did I care? No.

We settle in to the apartment we were renting as of right now. My dad couldn't bare the house or a hotel. Thinking about it, I don't think I could either... I missed her so much. Barely could stand it.

I have to clear my mind, or I will go insane.

I turn on the television, but it doesn't clear. It was on the news.

The autopsy for Mrs. Kim was released today. It appears she had been poisoned, and then stabbed in the stomach once. Please if you see her family, do not bother them. The are hurting, as much as we are.

Hurting as much as we are? How dare she. If only she knew.

"Namjoon, let's go out to eat." Jin requests. "Just you and I."
"Okay." I nod.

I get up off the couch, and I put my shoes on.

"Where would you like to go?" He asks.
"Anywhere is fine." I say.

We find a good Chinese restaurant, and we decide to eat there.

"This is really good," Jin begins. "Almost as good as mine."
"Yah, stop being so cocky." I laugh.
"Oh my, you laughed." He gasps.
"I still know how to laugh." I say.
"Fair enough." Jin replies.

We get up to leave, but the food sure didn't fill my emptiness.

"Agh, I forgot my phone I will be right back." Jin says running back to the restaurant.
"Yeah, okay." I nod.

I have been waiting ten minutes, still no Jin. I start to walk back to the restaurant, but I feel off.

Something is wrong.

"Jin?" I ask loudly.

That is when I feel someone touch my shoulder.

"Yah," I say, turning around.
"You are Rap Monster? Yes?" A ladies voice asks. Her face covered up.
"Ye... Yes? And you are?" I ask.
"That is none of your business." She says in a deeper tone than before. "Just be careful, don't go out alone, and stay close to home."
"What? Why?" I ask irritated.
"They are watching." She says walking away.

I see Jin coming then.

"Namjoon, who was that?" He asks.
"I don't know." I say.
"What did she say?" Jin asked worryingly.
"That 'They are watching'" I stutter. ", and to stay close to home."
Jin put a hand on his hip, and one on his forehead. "Namjoon, I don't think they wanted your mom. I think they wanted you."