The real me

Near the end.

Adams P.O.V.
Why me? Why didn't she take me with her?

I always ask myself these questions since day one of Freshmen year. That day changed everything that I thought would never change my mom left for another man leaving me and my dad alone. My dad did not take the news well he started to drink he yelled at me saying it was my fault she left for a richer man. We are poor you could say we didn't have the same luxuries as other people. My mom was the only one working she hardly got a day off from work one of the reason she left was because she was tried of working and my fathers constant abuse he hit her for no reason. I just got ready to go to school without my mother saying good-bye to me for the every last time. I needed a distraction for all this. I need to go a start a new life without my mother.

I never choose this life.

My name is Adam Johnson I live in Boston, New York I'm 15 turning 16 in one week. We are currently 2 months for summer break. I'm living in something I never ask for this wasn't the life I wanted to live. I wanted a life where my father never abused me. Where the jocks at school never beat me. Where I could have a peaceful life with only a few worries not some many that I couldn't count on my fingers. I don't have any real friends my only friends are the librarian, some school staff members, and my music.

We I live in a world were you have to face reality. And not live in a fairy tell.

I'm pansexual and have a crush on Jack Foster. My bully. Just to clear thing's up pansexual,bisexual,and any other type of sexual orientations are not the same thing. I know you've hear so many of these in the movies were the bully slowly falls for the nerd and they live happily ever after. But I have to face reality that in the end the bully doesn't fall for me will never fall for me. I not going to give myself false hope and think that he will ever fall in love with me he has his own life and a future that I won't be in.

I can't change what has happened but I can change my future.

School has never been easy for me I'm smart yes but the bullies are just to mean. Ever since middle school(6th grade to be exact)was when the bulling started.I was always the star student. The teachers always pointed me out for being smarter than the other students. Some of them felt that I was better than them. So they started to bully me after school. Now I'm in high school and in Freshmen year nothing has changed except things are different at home now. Back then in middle school I would run home from school trying to avoid the mean jocks that picked on me.

I will never give in to them I will fight till my future shines brighter than the sun.

Sometimes when they caught me the beat me not on the face just my stomach area so my parents wouldn't notice the bruises. If they did catch me they would hit me, kick me or throw rocks at me after that some of then gave me their homework. They said that if I didn't do it things would only get worse. So I did it that's what life has been since middle school even now the still beat me and they dumber than ever. They still give me all of their homework to do since they have "practice". Practice my ass they only say that because the don't have practice they have sex with girls that are begging to be taken by one of them.

My life hasn't been easy life is just that way. We don't choose to be who we are we just have to accept the person we are.

Jack Foster the most popular, richest, handsome guy in school. He has dirty-blonde hair, sky blue eyes he's tall and he's not really smart he's a little less than average. He was one of the first people to bully me back in 6th grade. He wasn't the one that lead he just followed but after years he became the leader of the little group that bullies me in high school. He has every girl rapped around his finger. He is the school star jock even though his grades are worse than shit. He isn't a bad person he is just a guy that was force to do something because of peer pressure. He has a good side to him just its locked up inside himself.