Michael Clifford's Little Sister

Chapter 9

***Michael's Pov***

This is all my fault. Mia wouldn't of hurt herself if I hadn't of said those things. Yes, she shouldn't of kissed Harry. Yes, I did the right thing by telling her off for it. But I could of said nicer things to her. It's all my fault. She could die now and it would be all because of me.

By the way her arms look, I could tell it wasn't the first time that she had hurt herself. I can't believe I didn't see it sooner, especially when my best mate is suffering from the exact same thing. She wears long clothes a lot. She hasn't eaten since she's came on tour with us. She's very distant from us. I should of seen all the signs. Why was I so stupid? All the signs where there. I should of known what happened between her and our mum had affected her. If she dies I will never be able to forgive myself. If she lives I will never be able to forgive myself for puting her through even more hell then she already was.

Once we got to the hospital we had to wait an hour before we could see her.

"Clifford." A doctor said. We all stand up and walk towards him.

"It looks as though the wounds on Mia's arms were self inflicted. She lost a lot of blood. We have her hooked up to an IV to get fluids in her body and we are giving her blood to help her body out. We have stitched up her wounds. She is still unconscious. I have no idea when she will wake up. When was the last time she ate?" The doctor asked.

"I... um... I actually don't know. She's been with us on tour for a week and I haven't seen her eat once." I told him.

"Well, we also found out the Mia is seriously under weight. We are doing this thing called refeeding. It's where we feed her through a tube to get her weight back to a normal weight. We only do it if the patient's life is at risk." The doctor told us. I started crying again. How didn't I notice how skinny she was before all of this?

"C-can we see her?" I asked. He nodded and we walked to her room. As soon as I walked in I regretted it. I started crying even harder. Ashton comes over and rubs my back.

"She's going to get through this. She's so strong. And with you by her side, I know she's going to be ok." He tells me. I just shake my head.

"No, Ash. I can't help her." I say crying harder. Ashton pulls me into a big hug.

"Hey now, don't say that. She needs you to help her get through this. She can't do this on her own." He tells me.

"Ash.... I couldn't help you. I tried to help you but I failed. If I can't help you, I know I defiantly can't help her. Ashton... I feel so helpless right now. I don't know what to do. I just can't loose her." I cry into his chest. He pulled me closer.

"Michael, you didn't fail. If anything I'm the one who failed. I'm going to help you. I'm going to help her. In fact we all will. And I know the 1D guys will to. It's not impossible. Everything will be ok." He told me.

"Stop telling me its going to be ok. IT WON'T!" I yelled. "I'm leaving, I need time alone." I said looking down. Ashton nodded and I called Liam to come get me. Once I got back to the hotel I didn't something I know I shouldn't do. It's bad. And it's what got Mia into this situation in the first place. But I can't deel with all this anymore. I can't deal with knowing it's my fault she's in the hospital. I just can't deal with it.
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***Ashton's Pov***

To be honest seeing Mia like this scares me. I have no idea when the last time she ate was but I know that unless something big changes in my bad habits, that will be me. I want to get better but I just can't.

Seeing Michael like this hurts me as well. He's like a little brother to me. And Mia is like a little sister to me. I suddenly feel the urge to cut. No Ashton you don't need to. I keep telling myself. Although the demons in my mind have other ideas. I walk over and sit beside Mia.

"I really wish you were awake right now. I really need your help. I want to get better. I really do but the demons in my head are yelling at me again. And I can't take it anymore. I'm so sorry. You gonna be so disappointed when you wake up." I told her. I kissed her forehead and walked into her bathroom and got my blade that I always keep with me.

"I'm so sorry Mia." I mumble.
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***Calum's Pov***

Luke and I walk back into Mia's room. We went to get food. Wheres Ashton? Hmm. He must of gone to get fresh air or something.

Seeing Mia like this breaks my heart. In a way it's my fault. If I didn't tell Michael that her and Harry made out, then he wouldn't of got mad and said mean things and hit her. And then we wouldn't of been in this situation.

I walk over and sit beside her.

"Please wake up, babe. We all need you here. I need you here." I mumble the last part so Luke doesn't hear.

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