Remininsce

I messed up

Noni's pov 
I know i messed up ,I'm young ,I'm dumb I'm not appreciative, i done this to myself  'thinks back to wat  happened '
👩My mom repeatedly asked ❓me 'y did u do it noni' and i told her because i'm grown mom 💥💢 i do what i want knowing i was only 13 and couldn't do anything on my own but i was caught in the moment and did something i knew id later regret, ✨i left ✨i know its foolish of me being that dumb to talk like that to the person who raised and took  care of me ,i yelled and threw things at her i knew better i just🙍 thought that he 💏would take care of me he said he loved me and would take care of me those words made me into the person i am , listening to a dumb boy 👦i don't know  why but i honestly thought he loved 💖me👧' Walking down the road'  🚶i'm freezing its cold ❄️out here I'm lonely and people are staring men smiling and touching me i just walked faster🏃 i wanted to ball up 😩and cry 😭i thought about going back home 🏡but i just couldn't face her after the things i did , my sister👧 was angry with me i couldn't turn to her i knew she'd just want to kill🔪 me she always did the wrong things but mom 👩wouldn't do anything but when she does something great shes Acknowledged 👏unlike me everything i do is a failure 👎if i did the most 👏acknowledgable thing in the world 🌎i would get no credit ,if i was 👶born wen the terrorist destroyed the twin towers ✈️🏢 🏢i would have been blamed ,why ? i don't know  but then an old man walked up
Man: wow ma let daddy slide in
U don't understand how many times i heard that id just walk 🏃faster i knew if i went to my daddies 👨he'd take care of me , i haven't seen him in two years but when i did see him he enjoyed🙀 my presence maybe he'd enjoy me to  be there everyday i had to buy a 🚍bus ticket 🎫to get there , i only had a few dollars 💰out of my piggy 🐷bank ,i gave the the driver💺 the money💰,
I fell asleep😴 on the bus 🚍 i was scared😥 but i felt safe for some reason 👼🙏 i was awoken by the bus driver ,💺🚍i was the last one on the bus🚍 i got off the bus at the last bus stop 🚫 i walked 🚶down the road⚠️ i was scared 😟 i was in an odd neighbor hood 🌆but as i turned the corner  i was in the suburbs🏤 the houses were huge i the cars  🚘were fabulous i couldn't even name some of them i was impressed 😱as i kept walking 🚶the houses🏤 got even bigger with basketball courts  🏀and football fields🏈 but as i walked up to the house 🏤with the address *1⃣7⃣3⃣8⃣ Getty lane *on the mailbox 📫i was excited and nervous i wanted to turn around but as i was turning around the porch lights
came on and someone came to the door.