Dear World,
Here I am again on my bed being lazy af because I need to cherish my Christmas break and school is coming. December is over and so is my will to survive - lol jk.
It doesn't really feel like it's 2016. Like wow, it feels like I'm still in 2015 a few hours ago.
I'm 100% sure that I will be writing 2015 instead of 2016 on my papers next week, and be like adding a small curve to the 5's tail so that it'll look like a 6. Is it just me? Hopefully not.
What can I say about 2015 . . .
Hm . . . this year isn't really the best year, and it definitely isn't that bad, so probably it's another of those, "Meh, it's alright" years.
I mean if I can dig in deeper inside my head, I can remember happy moments and of course, sad-terrible moments.
There is no such thing as a perfect year. We all have to step on shit sometimes. Because shit happens.
So I'm not expecting much on 2016 but I do hope the two of us will get along.
I've learned a lot from 2015 like . . .
- It takes time to move on.
- Not everyone are alike.
- That temper shouldn't take over me.
- Not to try kill myself.
You might think that what I am trying to pinpoint is obvious - well it is though.
This year, time just flies by and I had some issues in school, here in Wattpad, family. And whenever I think about it, I want to erase my memory.
Sometimes I think of a scenario of me having amnesia - I know some might think that it's stupid but you know, what if?
One day, you wake up only remembering your name, age and some of the things you've learned BUT you've completely forgotten about the people you know.
I wouldn't mind really. Call me weird but I think it's a fresh start. I can finally move on with the shit I've left behind.
And EVEN IF I DID, I know my mom or my friends will let me read my diaries that way it'll help 'regain' back the memories. But I know it doesn't work that way so LOL.
But, despite of all the bullcrap I've been doing my whole life, at least I've learned my mistakes and there will be more but I know I will learn from it. We aren't made to be perfect, we must be molded.
So yeah, if I could put up a montage of my year, it would be filled with happy memories.
Thanks 2015 and thank you, God. :)
-JeimChan
