Where Everyone Stands

Chapter 15

Whoever did this is better at putting makeup on their hand than I am putting on my face! Lol

Molly's pov

  Kendall brought me up to my room and helped me get settled in and she left leaving the door just a little cracked open letting light shine through into the room.

   I just sat there feeling the tears rolling down the sides of my face.

   Quite crying you baby!

I'm a strong person! I can't do this! I looked at my phone and I kept getting messages from the guys which was making it worse. But I finally text Matt back

Please stop messaging me -Molly

Where are you? -Matt

I'm fine -Molly

He's not going to led up until he finds me but I'm done. I got up slowly hoping no one would hear me. I walked to the bathroom door and look at myself

     Damn you look bad

   "Shut up" I whispered to myself but I did look bad. I had mascara under my eyes and my face was red. I through some water on my face and dried it will a towel.

Do it. You know you want to. It will make you feel so much better.

I looked down at the corner of the bathtub and saw a razor. I cringed and picked it up.

    Don't do it.

    You know you want to though.

   "Please shut up!" I whisper yelled again feeling tears rolling down my face faster and faster. I took apart the razor slowly and took a deep breathe. I felt the cold metal touch my skin, I almost hesitated but then I felt the slight pinch on my skin and could feel the blood oozing down.

See it doesn't feel good

You're right, it did feel good. I cut myself 10 more times after that. Five on my left arm, five on my right arm. I washed off my arm and put some bandaids over the cuts and laid back down in my bed.

My eyes slowly closed. I don't know if it was from blood loss or just from being tried.

The next morning I woke up and put on a sweatshirt and walked downstairs and saw a note. "'Went out, will be back later. Try and call Matt so you can talk to him xoxo gossip girl haha jk -Kylie'" I read out loud and looked at my phone

I called Matt and he answered right away. "Please tell me you're ok?" He asked sounding tried af "yes I'm fine" I said biting my lip because I know if we keep talking about it I won't be able to hold back the tears.

"Where are you?" He asked again, I'm going to be getting the 3rd degree for a while now "I'm fine, I already said that" I said and I could hear him sighing

"Molly please tell me where you are? We've all been up all night looking for you, and dang girl you run fast" he said and I almost laughed "I'm at Kylie's" I said closing my eyes "ok we are on our way-" he started to finish but I cut him off "please come alone" I said and I could almost see him nodding "fine, I will be there in just a minute," he said and hung up.

I text Kylie telling her that Matt was coming to get me to take me home. I sat and played with Norman (Kylie's dog) until Matt got here. I walked outside and he ran up to me and hugged the life out of me.

"Don't ever do that again" he said and I nodded and we got in the car and started to drive back.

"So are you going to tell me what happen?" He asked and I just shrugged and looked out the window

  "M please" he said and I knew all of this was killing him "Matt I really don't want to talk about this right now" i said and that was the end to anymore conversations in the car.

We pulled in the drive away and all the guys came outside, but I just walked right past them.

"Did you yell at her in the car to piss her off or something?" Someone mumbled to Matt "no, she only said two things to be me the car" he said and I just walked into the house and up to the guest room and shut the door

    Someone knock on the door and came in before I could even tell them to go away.

   "Rude much?" I asked not caring who it was "oh yeah says you" Hayes said and sat next to me "can you please get out?" I asked as nicely as possible "no, I'm not leaving until you tell me what exactly happen" he said

    3rd degree here we go......