'Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm
Afraid to fall'
I pulled one of my ear buds out, looking out the car window. Clouded skies on a rainy December morning. I never really appreciated how beautiful an overcast sky can look. Like an ocean after a storm, an ocean of grey. Though some find grey to be dull and boring. I can relate, I guess.
The school bell rings as I'm pulled out of my thoughts. I sigh and get out of my beaten up car, pulling my backpack over my shoulder. Walking to class was never my favorite thing to do, I always felt like everyone was staring at me and judging me for something, though that's probably me just being paranoid. I put my ear buds back in and walked through the doors. A simple task to get to class on time seemed to be so chaotic and stressful nowadays for these people. I simply shrugged my shoulders and went to my locker. I unlocked it and put some books inside, my eyes glanced over to a girl simply looking at a book by her locker.
'But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow'
She was a short girl, pale girl, long Raven-black hair, her eyes were covered my a pair of rectangle framed glasses resting on the bridge of her nose. I just looked at her for one -- no, maybe five minutes. It probably wasn't polite to just stare at someone, and maybe one day I'll be forgiven for it, but she was just so captivating to me. Her eyes so focused on the book she was reading, her lips pursed as she concentrated, dark locks flowing down to one side of her shoulder, giving me a better view of her cute nose.
'One step closer'
I quickly shook my head and closed my locker. Relax, just relax. You're ok. I thought to myself as I walked down the hall. I looked back and noticed that the girl wasn't there anymore. Thank go--. My thoughts crashed together just as I did with another body. What the hell? I looked up and saw the girl from earlier on the floor with homework sheets and school books scattered everywhere. Shit, I must've bumped into her.
"I am so sorry, I wasn't paying attention." I rushed to grab some of her papers. "It's ok," she giggled, "I'm a clutz anyway." My lips curled up at her comment as I grabbed the book she was so focused on earlier. "Here you g--." I stopped talking as we both met each other's eyes; I couldn't speak. Grey is all I saw. Overcast skies on a rainy December morning.
'I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid, I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more.'
I now understand what all those sappy love songs mean. I found oceans of grey and I found myself drowning in them.
