Excuse Me

I might show a breast, a titty or two, but that don't mean over sexualize me, Nigga I ain't thinking bout you. This is for me.
Because European ideologies, had me thinking my only way of life, was to prepare to be a wife, for a man who may not even wife me. Had me thinking I was not a queen and I was no good for anything, but laying down and pushing when they counted to 3. I shake my ass and rock my hips and move my joints to the beat, because my body is so stiff from the weight of the world pushing down on me. The doctors done told me that my production of life is at an all time low. So I'm trying to self heal, disease is not wanted here any more. Eat better, run better, think better, cry less, love more, and live forever. My energy stays when I go, I'm the predictor of my weather. And even though I've begun to meditate to keep my chakras aligned, you still might catch me lick the glass to catch the drip of my wine. This is my story, my process, my journey, so do you mind? You don't want to shake up my vibrations. I hope you know your ancestors cause I know mine. I said excuse me, If I begin to live out outloud, I always toned it down when it was big crowd. You probably couldn't tell because my spirit wouldn't let you feel that side of hell. The side of fear and anxiety, I know it all too well. I had too many things trying to block me, box me, and stop me from becoming a God. Like how I kept chasing niggas looking for my daddy, when the whole time he was inside of me. So excuse me, if I'm a little harsh, I've been alone for a long time.. spent a lot of time in the dark. I said excuse me, If I'm too hard as a leader, I know the power I possess, so don't knock me cause Eye see potential in your melanin. I'm learning, discerning, and focusing on being worthy. When I was a mental slave, no bible verse could help nor encourage me. So I started to ask questions and it almost worried me, that everything I ever been taught or told was a lie and for almost a week that shit buried me. And I'm in college, man this that shit B, that shit you call knowledge. I wasn't gonna acquire knowledge of myself, especially not at University of Michigan-Flint, especially when they only see foreigners as a currency and not an exchange for a learning investment. Anyways, so you have to EXCUSE ME, If I'm not your ideal flower, one thats full of colors, they got some sunshine and where I've been it's been raining for hours, days, weeks, months, years... well you get the picture. My grandmama(s) was like "We're here for you baby" funny how we can connect and they passed before I was even a baby. :) Somebody whispered to me and told me I was a queen. So I took my dusty crown off my shelf, and now I can watch my gold gleam.

A human tried to tell me cause eye could see that I'm the devil and I feed off of demonic means.... I laughed and Eye said, if only you knew me and demonic spirits went toe to toe when I was a sheep just like you.