Alive But Broken

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Kacey up above. :)

It has been three weeks since the break up and you can say that I am a train wreck. I couldn't sleep, I can't eat, I could only cry.

Why would he do this to me? He said he loved me, and for a fucking year? I'm so stupid! I should have seen this coming. Everything was to good to be true.

School starts again today and obviously, I didn't want to go but mom would kick my ass out of the house so I have no choice but to go to that god forsaken place and see Satan's son and his fucking whore.

As I was looking at the closet a while ago, black seemed to have drawn my attention and I really felt like wearing black so now, I'm wearing black from head to toe. I'm not goth or something I'm just wearing an oversized plain black shirt with black leggings and black combat boots.

School is like half an hour away from my house so yeah you can guess how eventful that was me driving my car dreading the time when I get to school so I was driving a little bit slower than the usual.

I parked my car at the farthest place in the parking lot of the school cause I liked walking, its like my way of exercising in the morning.

I got in the front doors and was headed for my locker, when I see one of my friends, Hana leaning on it.

I was in front of her by now , and she looks at me from head to toe scanning what I was wearing a smile forming on her lips.

"Hey! Sooo who died?" She asked me with a joking tone in her voice.

I roll my eyes at her and just shove her aside not, like a hard shove that could hurt her but like how you shove your friends kind of way.

"No one. Just my love life." I answered her quickly while slamming the door to my locker.

"What?"

A look flashes on her face but at the same time the bell rings.

I smile.

"Nothing we better go. Wouldn't want to be late on the first day of class."

She looks at me skeptically.

"What the fuck got in your butt?"

"Your cousin's penis."

Hana's eyes widen and her mouth forms a giant O shape.

"You had anal sex with cousin Freddie?"

My eyes widen.

"What the fuck? Why would I even have sex with Freddie! That's disgusting!"

I cringe at the thought of Freddie. The boy was a year younger than us and had an obvious crush on me. He was perverted, he would I quote accidentally unquote touch me in inappropriate parts, specifically my boobs but I let it slide cause he was Hana's cousin and he was only a kid.

"B-but you said."

"I was joking!"

"How the fuck would I know you were joking when you had a damn straight face bitch?"

We stare at each other for a minute, then start laughing our heads off.

"Great now I have a mental image of Freddie riding your ass." Hana said while cringing.

"Eww, let's just forget about that." I said dismissing the idea of me and Freddie cause never in a million years would that happen.

"By the way what happened to you the last three weeks? Haven't heard from you in a while."