Story Of My life: Hopeless Romantic [On Going]

Chapter 2

Hey Nat you know what? It's about time you let your parents be a parents to you. I know it's hard to adjust a but they're still your parents no matter what, and I know even if you don't say it, you still long for them.

I know, it's just that I don't know how. I never .. I mean in my whole life they weren't there its just me and Mommita. I may sound rude and ungrateful  but that's how it is, yes they provided me with everything financially, but they weren't there for me when I needed them! I never knew what it feels like to have both of your parents by your side. because MONEY is all they knew, it's the most important thing to them, NOT ME!

 

Week has passed since our parents arrive and we're here in our favorite cliff just kilometers away from home lying on our backs and star gazing. Obviously Nat is not that excited about their arrival. And yes he grew up without his parents not that they're dead or separated, obviously they're not, they just spend all their time working to provide him anything he wants and leave him to his grandmother. And like any other book, movies or series about family. Well not really the same as that somewhat close, they never had the chance to be his parent. they left when he was 3 to focus on their expanding business and came back 10 years later because of the recession due to degrading economy of the country, so they really didn't had the chance to make it up to him. 9 mos later together with my parents they left for Australia to be my parents business partner and finally after 5 years they finally said "it time to go home and start again" well that's what he told me. 

I don't know how hard it is for him cause I never felt nor experience what he's been through, but what I know is that he's in deep pain, angry, and confuse. And I wanted to help him in anyway i could just to make him feel a little bit better.

It's been bothering me ever since they arrive, you're not being yourself, it's strange. And no you're wrong. I'm not in the place to say that, but isn't it all parents just want what's the best for us? So how come that money is the only thing that important to them if they decided to go home to you?

I don't know Jas! Maybe they felt guilty or maybe they damn rich to provide me everything even if im 100 years old! All I know is I hated them and God knows what and how!

Im sorry i didn't mean to spoil our night.

It's okay, I'm sorry for making you worried. I know that your just concern. Thank you.

Silence fall over us. We stay there for a couple minutes Tracing the stars when i finally break the silence. i lay on my side to see him looking at the stars and deep in thoughts.

but how was it? Living with them?

It's strange actually. They we're like strangers to me, i felt like I've been adopted  trying to adjust and be the son they always wanted and them being the perfect parents I will ever have. I know i love them but I just don't feel that love. 

He looked at me and smile. If weren't best friends I can say that he's really okay but we are and all i can see is a fake smile and emptiness in his eyes were inevitable. I lay on my back again and start looking for constellations.  

Just take it slow Nat, give yourself a chance and give them a chance too.

He's the first one to stand and start walk towards our bike, He's not a real gentle man girls so don't keep your hopes up.

I know. that's what I'm doing. In fact i love your parents more than mine! can we exchange parents just for a week???

What? uh-uh no way. but you can leave with us!!

Really?! I would love too!!!

But in one condition. :D

Sometimes I wonder what if cars were never been made? i think its much better that way, people will be exercised whether they like it or not. And it's safer, Fresher Air, no noise pollution, just like now. all i can hear is the crickets and frogs, the smell of the ocean oh what a life..

I knew you wouldn't give in so easily. What is it now?

You'll be my Butler ! ahahahaha!

In your dreams! Race ya!!

Now you're talking! I ain't gonna loose!  Looser pays for the ice cream!!

Game!!!!!! 

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There are wounds that wont heal easily specially for those deep cut wounds, but it doesn't mean i wont heal, it takes time for that wound to be fully healed and once healed it would leave a scar. A Scar that can either be erased by the means of expensive creams or ointments some opted for medical procedures, but some were intentionally left seen and be reminded of something in the past that they get over with. Just like a souvenir that you get for once in your life for the first time.