Our son. Colin.

Pancakes!

„So the reason why Phil and I haven't been uploading videos for a while now is bec-", I immediately stopped talking once I heard my bedroom door open. I spun around in my chair to see my crying four year old son stand next to the door. I didn't even have time to stand up and walk over to him because he started running, as fast as a three year old boy can run, stopped right in front of me and stretched his arms out to me for me to pick him um and lay him on him no my lap, which I did. And as soon as he sat on my lap he snuggled himself onto my lap and started crying uncontrollably again. "Hey what's wrong buddy?", I asked him while wrapping my arms around his tiny body. "I-! ha-", he was cut off by my husband who came with a panicked look into my room. "Dan have you seen Colin?! He was sleeping and now he isn't in his roo-", he stopped talking as soon as he saw our crying son sitting on my lap. He walked over to us and crouched in front of chair and layed his hand softly on Colin's head. "What happened little man?", he asked Colin with a soft voice. "I had a bad dream", he said when he was a bit calmed down. "Can you tell us what it was about?", Phil asked calmly as he petted the back of Colin's head. "Y-you took me back to the mean lady in the big house", he said and Phil looked worriedly at me. Colin meant the orphanage. "We will never do that. You are our little guy now and we love you, Colin", I said and kissed his forehead. "Really?", Colin aske. "Really", Phil and I said at the same time. "Do you two want to stay here and help me tell my viewers why I didn't make a video for a long time?". Colin's eyes filled with joy and he cheared. "So I am guessing that is a yes?", I asked and Colin danced around in my lap causing me and phil to laugh. Phil grabbed the butt-chair and sat next to me. I looked over to him and stared him in the eyes. "Has anyone told you that you looked adorable wearing your glasses?" , I asked Phil which caused him to blush. He bent over and kissed me.

I am so happy.

With my Phil.

With my Colin.

The loves of my life.

After a while kissing we heard Colin giggle on my lap. We broke the kiss up and looked at him. He giggled a bit more and then said: "I like when daddys kiss", and giggled again. Phil turned bright red and bent over to read the chat. "francis_bb asks if we could explain why we are holding an adorable little boy and smoochin' around", phil read and we both laughed. "Well, Francis. Me and Phil are have been together for a long time now so I grew a pair and proposed to Phil", I laughed quickly seeing the chat window explode. "So,", I continued, "a few months after our marriage -which was also filmed- we decided to adopt this beautiful little boy called Colin.", I said as both Phil and I hugged Colin tightly making him beam with joy. "And now we are a big awesome nerdy family.". I looked into Phils eyes. "And I couldn't be happier", I lent in and kissed Phil again.

God I love him.

"Daddy?", Colin asked and I looked down to him, knowing he meant me, because he calls me daddy and Phil dad. I smiled to him. "Of course we can make some pancakes", I said and stood up throwing Colin in the air making him laugh. "Should I take your computer to the kitchen with us, then?", Phil asked. "No I can do that, thank you", I answered kissing him again. I watched as Phil picked Colin up and tickled him and smiled at them. I love them. "You can go downstairs I'll be right there", I said and turned back to my computer. "You know. Out of all these years. I have never stopped loving Phil. And I also never will. I just wanted you to know.", I picked my computer up and walked downstairs to the kitchen. While I was positioning the computer on of the cupboards making sure that the intire kitchen could be seen I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist

immediately knowing it was Phil I stopped moving the computer. I turned around in his arms and looked him in the eyes. "I love you", I said. "I love you more", he said back and kissed me once more.