Dear UD,
She tells me to move on, "It's a new year!" She says. And she's right, it is a new year. But she's also completely and utterly wrong.
It's a new year, a year full of first. The first that started it all, was the First Day. Sixteen days ago was the first day of my life without you. After that there was the first band performance. I played it for you, for your love of music. Then came the first Christmas Eve dinner. You would have loved it. Then there was Christmas morning. We all huddled together in the living room, staring at the presents you bought us. You bought my brother and me a chess board. You were planning on teaching my brother how to play. Now I guess I will. You bought me an album by my favorite band, Muse.
Everything looks different without you. No one understands how hard it is. They say they're sorry, but its just the polite thing to do, it doesn't help.
I think about you everyday. I hope you are happy wherever you are.
Love, Freckles
