I Give Up !

In my Heart.

In my heart I know some people do love me. I just don't know why some of the people who have claimed to love me left.
I've tried so fucking hard for four years now to try to do good to try to be happy I can't I don't think I ever will be . Everything I love has always left me hurt. Everyone I try to please I just disappoint I never can make anyone happy. Id be surprised if I made a difference in someones life at all even just a small impact. I don't know why everyone holds me back and thinks I'm usless. I'm sick and tired of this life and I just wanna say goodbye.