Friendship or Pain

You don't understand me.

I try to like you.

But you seem to not realize

I have emotions too.

I don't want to brag

Or show off,

But I think it's really time,

For you to stop.

I cover it all up,

Way better than you.

You will never realize

I'm stronger than you.

I'm sorry to say

Your life is a mess,

But you say I'm stupid,

So I couldn't care less.

You seem to think

I like you a lot.

It's really an act.

I can't stand your thoughts.

You don't know who I am

Or what i feel.

I want to escape,

And finally feel real.

You're not the only person

Who says 'why can't I die?'

I know you feel pain,

But, so do I.

You call me a fool,

And say I'm not smart,

But the truth is,

I'm falling apart.

Hate me all you want.

I will not care.

I'll enjoy myself more

As long as you're not there.

To be honest, I'm scared,

And have lots of worry.

So please leave and come back,

But when you do, don't hurry.