Say You Love Me (MAJIM Fan Fic SERIES)

It's Over

Jim woke up. He checked his phone for the time, it was just 7AM on a Saturday. He rolled on the other side of the bed and it surprised him to see Mayim at the couch sleeping. "Mayim?" He uttered waking her up. "Hey. You're awake. Sorry I fell asleep again." She said. She went to the bathroom and washed her face. "Are you feeling dizzy?" She asked. "A bit." He replied. "That's hang over. Do you want me to get you a coffee or something?" She asked. "No. No. I'm good." He replied quite bothered, he knew how he talks when he's drunk and though he wasn't sure what he said and confessed last night, he had the courage to ask her about it. "Uhm, I'm sorry for anything that I've said last night. I'm not sure what I said but sorry." He apologized. "No. It's fine." She replied, suddenly, Courtney entered his room with a french toast and coffee. "Oops. Sorry, I just brought you guys some food while you talk about love things... You know." She teased. "Love things?" Jim asked. Mayim refused to talk. "Oh. You haven't- oh, okay. Uh..." Courtney blabbered. Jim looked at Mayim for some clue. "I should go." Courtney said and left the two alone.

"Let me just prepare your shower." Mayim changed the topic. "No... What was Courtney talking about?" He asked. Mayim took a deep breath and turned back at him as she stroked her skirt as she exhaled. "Uhm... Well... It was just that... you were so drunk and blabbering things and you said that you love me and Courtney heard it. I know it's silly right? She took it seriously." She said continuously and tried to distract herself by faking her giggles.

"But don't worry, It's fine, I know you're drunk and-"

"I meant it." He cuts her off. Silence swarmed the room and Mayim couldn't think of what to respond with his confession.

"It's true. I know it doesn't seem to sound so realistic, I mean, I never thought I would actually want... Or ever want to be committed to anyone but then... I met you." He continued confessing as Mayim listened closely finding it hard to believe what she was hearing from him.

"I know we didn't start good, you had a bad impression on me but I am willing to change... I am willing to be better for you. I mean... I'm serious believe it or not." He continued but Mayim started feeling confused. "Now... I just wanna know if I should continue this, this thing we have or if we're not on the same page... Then maybe we should stop this already as early as now." He explained but Mayim still found it hard to reply.

"So... Mayim, do you love me too?" He asked courageously, largely hoping she would say yes. Her eyes started to get sparkly and a bit teary. She couldn't believe of what she was hearing. He smiled at her as they gazed on each other.

"No. I'm... sorry." She hardly uttered.

Jim's heart shattered into pieces upon hearing her reply. He wasn't used to rejections, it was his first time to love someone that real, it was his first time that someone rejected him and he failed to get what he wants.

"Jim... I'm sorry, it's not what you think-"

"No. No. I understand."

"Jim..."

"No, really. It's fine. How can I not see this coming." He uttered in pain.

"You're great... Jim..."

"Yeah. Sure. I just wish I was great enough for you." He said.

Mayim was confused, she wasn't ready to answer his question, she haven't thought about it through and she was afraid that even if she wanted to be with him, she would mess things up and she thought he was too much for her.

"I'm sorry." She apologized. He faked a smile despite that the agony he was taking was clearly visible in his eyes. "Well... I guess this is... The end... for us." He brought it up. Mayim refused to speak. Tears started streaming down her face.

"I would no longer be tying you to me. You're free now. Be with the one you really like." He barely said and smiled at her.

Tears continued streaming down her cheeks continuously that she decided to leave instead of staying. She could not ask to stay for she wasn't even sure about her feelings for him and she didn't want to tell him her desire to stay and then change her mind afterwards and so she decided to just leave. Courtney saw Mayim crying as she left and she knew that something wrong happened.