A house filled with people just waiting for you to mess up any second is the worst feeling ever. I'm the one in the family that gives up when things get tough it's a known fact even when I was younger, the only thing I didn't give up on was baseball that's the only thing I really have been successful in and also made my parents be proud of me. I truly don't want my parents to be disappointed for my own actions, but it's so hard to please them when they expect me to be perfect. My brother (Greg), and sister (Naomi) are the ones that love pleasing my parents also they love when they brag about how amazing their lives are. I'm the one my parents don't talk about a lot, mostly because I'm not a gorgeous model or a intelligent lawyer like my siblings are; I'm just a good for nothing loser.
"Barrett! Barrett!" Naomi shakes me till I wake up, "What ! What, I'm up" I yell as I rub my eyes. "Great, you're up. Now, hurry up before your late once again", I grab my sister's arm before she leaves "I finished my stash, I need more", she looks at me as she smirks "Of course you do, I'll have it by possibly later on today. Deal", "Deal". I quickly head to the shower, as I step into the shower and start thinking to myself; I hate the fact that I'm obsessed with drugs but it's the only thing that makes me feel relaxed and at peace something that this world does not do to me. I grab a towel, and headed into my bedroom until one of my sister's friends called out my name I turned around and there she was standing right in front of my starring down my half naked wet body. "What, do you want Janet?", she laughs as she pokes me "Oh, you know what I want why do you always have to ask that silly question?" she giggles. She always does this every time I see her, she doesn't get the fact that I don't want nothing to do with her. "Janet, look what you're about 20 and I'm a senior in high school is this ever going to get old?", she steps closer to me "Oh, boy just one more year till you're legal" she winks at me as she walks towards my sister's room. I don't really know why I attract girls, I'm not smooth like Jason, I'm not funny, I'm not talented, all I know what to do is screw people over but I guess that's what attracts them because I'm an asshole. Quickly through on a blue V-neck, some light blue jeans, and my converse, splat on gel and I'm good to go. I head down stairs, and I see that the whole family is wide awake today. My mom's making breakfast, my dad's reading the news paper, my brother's begging my sister to fix his tie, and Janet' eating some food seductively which isn't really working but it's working for my brother. "Good, morning Brat" my mom kisses my forehead "morning". I sit next to my father, and he's silent I could only image what I have done wrong now. My mom hands me my breakfast, and I stuff my face so I could get out of this silence that's killing me. As I was getting ready to leave my father stops me "Barrett, I need to have a word with you", "Yes, Sir" I sit down on the coach. "Barrett, I got your report card and it seems like I can never be happy with you". When my father said those words it really did kill me "Well, I'm so sorry sir that I'm not something that can bring money to the table" as I grab my stuff and start to head out the door "I really want you to get some help with your classes, I don't really care who it is or how much they pay just go fin some help". I didn't really say nothing back to him, because I already know where this is going to end anyways. I may be rich, but in my household you have to earn something you want which I really don't get anything because I don't want to try. So, that means I don't have a car I only have a skateboard.
From the cross light I was about to cross, I could see Emma a few feet away. She looks stunning with her curly hair, and what she's wearing today; is it weird how I can spot her instantly but I could never stop my girlfriend ? I quickly jog to the school to catch up to Emma "Hey", she looks at me with her piercing green eyes "Hi', "You look great! Especially your hair it suits you" she smirks at me where I'm able to see her adorable dimple "Thanks". I continued walking with her, without speaking I was just starring at her I don't know why I just couldn't take my eyes off her. "What are you looking at?", I didn't really think she would be able to tell I was starring at her "Sorry, I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable", "Look I really enjoyed this bonding experience, but don't you have to met up with your girlfriend or something?". I've totally forgotten about my girlfriend, Karen I had to met up with her on the fourth floor. "Thanks for reminding me, I'll see you later Emma" a big smile grew on my face when I told her goodbye. I quickly head up stairs, praying tat Karen isn't pissed off at me. I ran passed Jason, he yelled out "She's pissed off dude". Karen gets mad pretty easily, but hopefully she's not pissed just because I'm a couple minutes late right? I quickly stopped running when I saw Karen standing right in front of my with her arms crossed. "Barrett, are you kidding me we always met up here at the same time like always you could have at least texted me saying you were running late or something". I can tell, that she's really upset "I'm sorry babe", I pull her in for a hug "It's not okay" she says as she walks past me, I grab her arm "Ouch Barrett!", "Can you tell me what's wrong Karen?". She looks like me "Well if you must know everything, I'm on my period and I'm very emotional alright come on it's the 27th when my period comes!", she swears she thinks I kept track of when and when not her period comes. She turns back around and says "Well, are you going to stand there like an idiot or are you going to hold hands with me down the hall as we go buy so snacks from the vending machine?". She always does this, it's gotten worse now I don't know why though so I do as she says I grab her hand and walk over to the vending machine. "Okay, can you get me the rice crispy treats, and something salty like the lays chips, then a pink lemonade", I grab all the things she has asked for and I've put them in her bag. 'Now, one more thing well actually two more things", "You haven't told me how good I look like you always do or even kissed me", I kissed her lips lightly. I take a step back and look at her, she looks like she's not even on her period. She wearing this maxi dress with her hair in a braid and nicely touched makeup "You're the most attractive girl of all time" I say as I kiss her one more time. Jason comes running in "What's up love birds how's it going?", "Ugh shut the fuck up" Karen says as she walks away from her twin brother. "Ahh, it's the 27th", I and Jason begin to laugh. "How do you handle being with a girl like my sister for 7 months?", "I just, I don't even know bro". We both begin to laugh, actually I did know I just give her all the attention she needs and I don't complain to her about anything. "How about you, have you found someone you like?", he begins to laughs "Well, besides Emma I'll have to say her friend Rose she's very Rose like", "But I hear she's dating this guys who's younger then her so I don't really know if I might even have a chance. With Emma she's a roller coaster, but I could she myself riding that roller coaster maybe, but at the moment I'm just fooling around with as many girls as I can", "Really bro?" I say as I hit him on the side "Dude we're seniors do you knows how many of these girls would love to get taken advantage of?" I began to laugh "Dude you're horrible" I said to him. "I'm just enjoying life with protection! So, when are you and my sister going to do it?", I look at him "Look I love your sister but I don't think she's the one I'd like to lose it to", "Wow, bro that's a burn have you told her that?", "No, she's never asked about us having sex". Jason's started laughing "Damn, I'm sorry bro but if she hasn't asked maybe she's having sex with someone else". "Shut the fuck up" I shut my locker, and started walking away "I'm sorry dude". It did bother me that Jason thinks his sister's banging someone else, but I'm not worried I'm not even ready to have sex I love Karen but I'm not ready to give myself to her I hope she isn't.
I remember the first time I met Karen, she was cheering at one of my basketball games back in 10th. In fact she was the reason why I missed the shot, just seeing her cheering on the side line with her amazing smile. The whole team was pissed off, but I didn't care just wanted to know her name. I remember telling Jason, "Damn look at that girl who is she" Jason was so grossed out. He told me "Dude doesn't she look like someone you know?", I couldn't really tell until I noticed her blonde hair, blue eyes, and her smile it looked so familiar then I realized she looked a lot like a he, Jason. I never knew Jason was a twin the fact that the female version of him is attractive is freak to the fact that I might be attracted to my best friend. After finally meeting her it took me forever to ask her out, until this year which is senior year. Yeah, I had no balls when I met her I couldn't even walk and talk with her with out tripping every second. Walking with her down the halls of the school felt so good, I was the envy of all the guys they all wanted Karen. Karen is yet the most amazing person I have met, she's so down to earth but all of a sudden she's been quite different and I don't think it's just the period. Ever since we've been together she' been quite strange, she started putting tons of make up on, started dressing more raveling and I don't really understand why.
*Bell Rings* I've been day dreaming through the whole class wow, I get up from my desk and start heading out until Mr. Crane called me. "Mr.. McCartney was my lesson interesting today?", "Oh, yes sir it's was very interesting", he smirked "Nice to hear that, but next time don't day dream in my class no wonder why you are failing", "I'll pay attention next time I prom-", "No, need for that Mr. McCartney, your father called and he'd love for me to assign you to a tutor", "Of course, I'd do anything to improve my grade and I appreciate my father's concern Mr. Crane", "I like you attitude Mr. McCartney, I'll be calling you're father later with the details", "Will do Mr. Crane. Have a nice day". As I walk out of the class I start thinking to myself how my own father doesn't think I am capable of trying to fix my own problems he always has to but in. Karen yells my name down the hall, I really don't need any complaining right now. "Barrett! Barrett, wait for me", I wait till she catches up "Barrett, you should've stop the first time I called you. I'm the one with the period you don't have to make it even more hard for me today", "Look Karen yes, you have your period and just because you are one it. It doesn't mean I have to stop being my emotions just because you have a different emotion every second", she looks at me with her innocent look. "I'm sorry babe, I didn't know you felt that way. I should just leave you alone". I stopped her from walking away "No, Karen I'm sorry for exploding on you I shouldn't take it out on you", she kisses my cheek "Alright, I'm sorry too for being a bitch and blaming it on my period". We walk down the hall together hand in hand walking her towards her car, "Are you sure you don't want a ride?", "No, my sister's picking me up we've got some things to do" I say as I open the car door for her "Alright well I'll text you when I'm home okay" "Okay, drive safe" I say as I give her one quick simple kiss and slam the car door.
As I see Karen drive off, I see Naomi waiting for me. "Hey Brat! How was school?", "Crappy like any other day", "Really, but I would think you spent the whole day with your girlfriend shouldn't that be making you happy?", "Of course, but not when she's on her period", "Aw she's on her period too, that's great to know that we get it around the same time", "So enough small talk, did you get what I told you to get?". She searches through her bag and pulls out a small bag with weed in it, "Do I ever disappoint you Barrett", "Nope you sure don't, but I do". "Ah, Barrett enough with all the feelings remember I'm the one with the period here". Naomi pulls over, and smiles at me "Let's do this". There I was just waiting till my sister finishes making the blunt for me, "Oh much I needed this" I say as I start exhaling it. Drugs are the only way to help me clear my mind, I haven't smoke in 2 weeks tried staying clean but I couldn't. Another thing I disappointed my self with .
