Obsessive Daydreams & Beautiful Nightmares

Dear Tiana

25 July, 1982

Dear Tiana

Congratulations. I have recently heard about your engagement to Timothy and I couldn't be more thrilled.

I trust the chap is treating you well and you him. Knowing you, you wouldn't settle for a man less than perfect and I trust that he is excatly that- absolutely perfect.

I have some good news myself. Kenny and I have gotten a dog. Now I know Kenny is still young, but he needs the companionship... and so do I. We haven't named the fellow yet but I will update you when we do.

I look forward to hearing from you again, Tiana, but with the wedding preparations and all, I understand if you do not find the time to reply.

Yours truely

Henry

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4 January, 1978

Dear Tiana

I enjoyed visiting you and your family over the Christmas holidays. Thank you for your hospitality.

Now that I have returned to London everything here just seems so boring without you and our conversations. Having said that, I figured it a good idea if you would take the time to come round and visit me. I garentee you will have a splendid time.

Hope to hear from you soon my dear.

Love

Henry

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13 August, 1978

Dear Tiana

Thank you for taking time out off your summer break to come visit me.

I think we can both agree that the time we shared together was nothing short of fantastic. I know you were really embarrassed by it, but I don't want that scene on the balcony to ruin your otherwise good memories. Infact, in a few years time we will be chatting about it and you probably will not be bothered by it in the slightest.

Will you do something for me? Will you give my kind greetings to your parents back in Boston?

I remember you telling me you were going to start college soon. I sincerely hope you enjoy studing English litreture and Art. They suit you well. I myself am looking forward to finishing medical school.

I've thought about what I plan to do once I graduate and I have added another option to my list. Would it not be grand if I came to Boston and started a life there... with you? I know you think I should not base important discussions on personal relationships, but I have a good feeling about this,Tiana.

Write to me as soon as you get the chance to.

Love

Henry

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3 December, 1978

Dear Tiana

You are amazing. I am so pleased to hear about your accomplishments at college this far. I had no doubt you were capable of those achievements.

I have more good news to add to yours. I was invited once again to visit you and your family over the Christmas break. I am looking forward to seeing you again. Hopefully we will just pick up where we left off.

I have spent days looking for the perfect Christmas gift for you, but what do you yet the girl that already has everything? Only if I could wrap my heart in a box, then maybe I could give you a gift good enough.

I am counting down the days until I see you my dear.

Love

Henry

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18 October, 1981

Dear Tiana

I write this letter with much pain in my heart. The revelation in your previous letter saddens me.

I never gave up on us. I never gave up on what we had and I thought you hadn't either. I know our relationship has faced some difficult turns, what with Kenny and all, but I did not believe they were all for nothing. I have no doubt in my mind that if we both really want it to, this relationship would work.

I do not wish for you to look back on your life and find that you have regrets. But I fear that if you pursue this relationship with Timothy, you would be making a huge mistake. I know your parents like him and he has a lot to offer you, but do not kid yourself Tiana, you do not have feelings for him.

If you were willing, you could have a life with Kenny and myself here in London. You could be happy, you know that. You could live a happy life with us because we would love you, I would love you and you would love me back. You can have that, Tiana. You can still have a happy life.

Please Tiana, think about what you are doing. Think about what you are giving up. I trust that you will make the discussion best for you.

Love

Henry

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7 March, 1979

Dear Tiana

I want you to know that I never meant for this to happen. Even still, I regret nothing.

I understand your distress, believe me I do. I am sorry you have to leave college especially because you were enjoying it so much. I'm sorry for the strain that has been put in the relationship between you and your parents. I am sorry that you feel stuck with a child you have no wish to carry. I am sorry you blame me, and I take responsibility for my actions.

I have been offered a position at a local hospital in New York and I shall accept it. The job pays well and I will be able to provide for you and the child. I know that you had big plans for your life and they shall all come to pass, but for now we must do what is best for the child.

Will you come and live with me? I know your family will not be pleased, but this is the best we can do with our circumstances. I will take care of you Tiana, I promise I will. I will do everything in my power to make you happy. In August next year you can return to college, which I will pay for, and continue your studies. It will all work out Tiana, I promise.

I love you Tiana and don't ever think otherwise.

Love

Henry.

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1 September, 1981

Dear Tiana

I write this letter to you in Kenny's and my new apartment. Yes, we have finally settled in back in London.

I will not tell a lie, I was not looking forward to moving make here without you, but it is done. I would not like to think of this apartment as our permanent home as I hope that one day you will come to live with us and we will aquire a larger space.

Kenny seems to be adjusting well. There is a small park not far from our building where he and our neighbours' daughter have been playing. I just dread the cold snow that will be coming in a few months that will rip Kenny away from the swing set.

In two weeks, it will be Kenny's second birthday. I know your family does not wish for you to see him anymore, but if you could manage to come pay him a visit on the special occassion, it would be much appreciated. I am sure he would love to see his mother again.

Tiana, I know that you have already made your discussion to live a life without Kenny and me, but should you ever change your mind just know that you will always have a home with us. In addition, I also want you to know that, despite your wishes, I will always love you Tiana, always.

Love

Henry

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