The new me because of you

chapter 2: The weeks that followed

The weeks that followed were quite different. One because there was four new people sitting at my lunch table. And I don't even know why I said one. That was the only thing that really changed. The people that are new at my table are, Chad ( who is as known as idito), Jason ( one that gets curious almost all the time), Cj or that's what I call him  ( who likes to make people hate him in a way), and last, Hannah ( who is kind of shy until something "goes wrong").

Jason and Cj sat with us because a kid named Ryan sat there.  Chad sat there to annoy all of us girls. Shocker... not! Anyways, Hannah sat with us because one I invited her to sit with us and, two she was dating Chad. Well me begin me, I sat there and talked to whom ever.  Mainly to Becca though. One of the other girls at my lunch table, that chad annoyed. Of course when something went "wrong" or was said "wrong", we all would just crack up. It was like we were all one big family. Well... sort of.

The reason I say sort of is because, when you see the person you fallen in love with dating someone else it nearly kills you. Though I don't think it would have mattered at the time. Oh well. Anyways it nearly killed me, and it probably would have too. If I let it. But I sat quietly and, cried inside, while on the outside I acted as though everything was peachy.

A couple of weeks after I found out that Hannah and Chad were dating, Becca asked me if I was ok. Only her would know if I was ok, and she did because she knew I was lying to her, when I said I was fine. So I spilled everything. I broke and, I didn't care at that point who saw me crying and, Becca trying to comfort me. That day I died inside and, I knew it wouldn't be long til I'd have to dig my own grave as well. As the weeks carried on, Chad didn't sit with us and, soon after neither did Hannah. Which that killed me even more. Great looks like I'm digging my grave.

But then again, I knew Hannah would never go out with someone like me. Though it hurt me to know that she was dating someone else, and it may have also killed me ( it did), I knew Hannah was probably with who she was meant to be with. I had to give it to her, Chad is pretty cool. AT FRIST! But I let her go. I didn't hold on to her, even though I wanted to, I didn't. And we both went our own ways. Til well I'll let you read on and see the til.