The Boy Who Gave Me Blank Stares » Narry

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You know when in stories they describe their first kiss with their crush or with someone? And it's sparks and butterflies that they feel?

Well, they aren't kidding. My eyes had widened the minute Harry's lips touched mine and my body had frozen.

I didn't know what do to. But I let myself relax a bit and my eyes fluttered closed. He simply had his lips against mine and wasn't moving them. I felt how soft they were and so plumped.

I didn't know what to do in this position so I waited for him to do the first move. And he did. To say, it was a bit awkward. There was still some space between.

I felt him slowly slide his arm around my waist and the hand still holding mine, let go and cupped my face. He brought me closer to him and I felt myself instantly burn up at how warm his body was.

I hesitantly placed my left arm on his bicep and left the other slip onto his waist. He seemed to be breathing heavily and trying to make the first move and I swallowed. I was nervous and just wanted him to do something.

And then he started moving his lips. Slowly and unsure. I hesitantly started moving my own and everything seemed surreal.

I couldn't believe that the guy that I've been crushing over for a while, is kissing me now.

Harry Styles is fucking kissing me.

I felt myself relax against him and things start to go a bit smoother. The butterflies in the pit of my stomach didn't seem to calm down and neither were the sparks that I felt with simply touching his lips.

I felt him sigh and pull me even closer. His hold on me tightened and I can't lie in saying that I didn't like being close to him. Because, I do.

But just like it had happened, it soon ended. He pulled away completely and I stumbled a bit. I let out a breath and stared at him with wide eyes.

The same expression was on him. He blinked a couple times before opening and closing his mouth. I waited for something to come out of his mouth, but nothing did.

I swallowed a lump that had formed in my throat and ran my hand through my hair. I still couldn't believe this had happened.

And once he had pulled away, I felt cold --not having the warmth of his body close to me.

"Um, I-I, I have t-to go." Harry stuttered and then walked past me. I stood there still trying to process all the events and slowly turned to look at where Harry was walked to.

He was completely out of sight. I blinked and shook my head. I simply can't believe that this happened. Everything was just perfect to me. The way his lips felt were just like I had pictured them.

I loved being close to him. And I wish that that could be possible, but something told me that would want to forget it all. Because one, he's Harry, two, he doesn't like me. Neither friendly or romantically.

And that's what hurts. It hurts that I like someone so much and that they don't even bother talking to me when I try to. Or when I'm simply being nice.

A frown made its way onto my lips and I simply sighed and decided that I wasn't as hungry anymore and simply headed to the restroom. I needed to clear my head.

What happened with Harry was definitely a mistake. Of course to me, it wasn't. But it didn't mean anything to Harry.

Just like in movies, a kiss like that never means anything to those who 'accidentally' initiate the kiss.

But to the ones getting kissed, like me, it means the world to them.

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Hello my precious little darlings.

How are you guys? I want to get to you know you. I feel like I don't know any of you.

But I want that to change. In the meanwhile, I hope you guys liked this chapter. It was more of a filler and I'll try to make the chapters long enough, but it's hard. You get me?

But anyways, I'm starting school on Monday and I'm freaking out! I don't want to! I love break and being able to read and sleep.

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