Therapy Session Stingue •Yukinerva

Session Three: Void

Session Three:
Void: (adj.) not valid or legally binding or completely empty.
(n.) a completely empty space

Yukino • Aguria

"Hey, Yukino.. Where did you go today..?.." Sorano asked with me usual bored expression. I swallowed harshly.

"Just hanging out at the library.." I gave her the usual fake smile and she nodded heading out to go be with her, better than me, friends.

Alone.

I was going to be alone for who knows how long.

Like I always seemed to end up, alone with her slipping away and Karen's words making my ears bleed.

"Yukino are you stalking your sister? Such a decent face yet so creepy.."

"What are you in love with her? Fucking freak.."

"Are you going to cry? Hold on let me get my camera!"

"If you tell your sister, I'll end you, fucking dike."

None of that was true.

I would never see my sister that way. Was it really that strange to depend on my only family left? Was I really that disgustingly pathetic to need her to be around?

When I had headed into that office, I didn't know what to expect. In my best way possible, I told him my pain. My pain of being myself and being so damn needy it hurt.

"Yukino do you think you're crazy?" That was the first thing he said to me after I finished my rant. It jolted me.

"W-what.. I don't.." I didn't know.. How could I not know? That was the most terrifying part of feeling this way. You never know if you're crazy or you really are sick and trust me there is a distinct and great difference.

"You don't know?"

Therapy • Session

I shut my eyes and thought back.

All the verbal abuse from Karen, the alienation from Sorano, the pressure of living up to the expectations at school, the constant need to have someone.

"She's got big shoes to fill once Sorano graduates.."

"Everyone's counting on you!"

"Do it yourself. I don't have time."

"Sorry Yukino, I really have to be there for them. I'm sure you'll make better friends than your sister right?"

"I'm tired of being so alone!"

"Please stop forgetting about me.."

"Am.. Am I invisible..?.."

That couldn't make me crazy. I had been through a lot, I had been and still am being abused and I wanted to depend on Sorano just like I did before everything became void.

"No, I'm not crazy.." My voice didn't sound like my own, it was so confident that it was hard to recognize, "I don't think I'm crazy either, but I do want a little help."

The doctor smiled. "Good, I don't think you're crazy either and I want to help you."

I heard the clock, signalling our session was over.

"Then I'll see you next week..?.." My voice more timid now, I was hoping so much he's say yes that when he smiled at me again I nearly cried tears of joy.

Yukino • Aguria

"Of course you will, Yukino."

Something was about to change and I  felt ready to end the void.

((I went on a hiatus but I'm back! What did you guys think? I know you're getting a lot of therapy settings but don't worry. Rogue is last and I'm pretty excited! Then the plot will fully unfold. Until next time ~ Mitsuki))