Him. (A Ponyboy Curtis love story)

Chapter 13

I slowly and shakily got out of the car. It started drizzling I felt like I was crying but no tears were coming out. My brain felt weird. Like a bunch of little hairs grew in it and it was making my brain fuzzy and slow. I also felt like throwing up. I couldn't even see straight.

My hand tightened its grip on the note as I walked towards the door. Dallas got there first. He opened the door and peeked his head through it. I heard him ask for Steve. But I also heard the answer. "He just left to go home." He left for home. He'll see it. His dad dead. Things went really blurry and I felt myself rush to meet the grass.

I felt soft hands place themselves at my cheeks, my eyes fluttered open and I saw Ponyboy hovering over me. "Steve.." I mumbled.

"Don't worry baby, Soda and Dallas are getting him. Your okay." He looked at me like I was a wounded animal that might snap and rip his throat out at any moment. I didn't like that too much.

"I'm not mean.?" I almost asked, trying to get Pony to change his look at me. I was still out of it. "I know that princess. I know." He sat me up and I rapped my arms around him.
"Take me inside." I mumbled into his chest. He lifted me off the ground and brought me to his and Sodas room. He laid down with me and I held him. Then I remembered the note.

I put it on his lap and stared into his eyes. He began to read it silently. His eyes got big and sorrow filled. He tightened his grip around me.
"I love you Kathleen more then you will ever know okay?" I felt a few tears roll down my cheeks. "I love you" I whispered. I was about to close my eyes but I heard the front door open. I jumped up and ran as fast as I could to the door. I saw Steve and he had big red puffy eyes. I jumped into his arms and we both began to cry, him very softly and my very hard.

I held him as tight as I could, like I was scared he would be taken from me too. I looked at pony, indicating I wanted the note. He handed it to me and I handed it to Steve. He read it and swallowed. "You found him..." His voice trailed off. I nodded my head and sat on the couch. Pony and Steve sat next to me. I decided I was tired so I laid my head on Ponys lap and my feet on Steve and drifted into a dark deep sleep.

"Hey don't get snappy doll. I just wanna have some fun." He had me down in a second. It was the soc that tried to rape me. He held my mouth open and shoved his toung in. His fingered trailed down to my heat. Suddenly i was at my house, in my nicest dress, the dress I wore to my moms funeral. I was crying. Then I was in pain. My dad hit me again and again. Telling me I was worthless. That was the first time he hit me. I watched my surroundings change. I was at school. I was shoved and called names. It was the popular girls. They kicked me and kicked me. I shut my eyes and opened them to my father hanging there. But his eyes were open and he was smiling.

I jumped up and looked around. Tears slowly fell out of my eyes and I was sweating and panting. Nightmare. I looked around, I was on the couch and pony was in the arm chair. The clock read 3:57. I thought about my dream and started heaving. I realized I was having a panic attack. I got up and opened the door. It was pouring by now. I had to leave. I can't handle this.

This is my fault. I don't know why or how or what but it's my fault. It all is. I started running. I'm not sure why, I can't remember what went on in my head. I just couldn't handle it. I needed to get away. I ran and ran. I finally stopped, no clue where the hell I was. I looked around and all the houses were big and nice. Great. Soc neighborhood.

I saw a car that looked like my fathers and lost it. I dropped to my knees under a big oak tree and starting crying. I began shaking from the cold and rain.

After what seemed like a lifetime the sun started coming up, it was probably 5. I laid my back against the tree, and put my head on my knees. I was shaking so bad. It was hailing and pouring and thundering. My tights were soaked and I only had on a semi long sleeve shirt, which was also soaked.

Why did I have to run like that? Why did I have to freak out? I don't even know where I fucking am! And with my luck I'm sure the school bullies or the rapists are near. God I'm such a fuck up! I silently screamed at myself.

I saw a door open and two girls who looked Steves age walked out. One of them pointed my way and they both looked, the whole gang knows them. They helped the gang when all that drama happened about a year and a half ago. Cherry and Marcia. They looked at me and started walking towards me, slowly. I've met them once. With Steve when he went to meet them and get info about a rumble. I wondered if they recognized me. I didn't talk at all.

"Hey, you okay?" Cherry asked. They were pretty close to me. I jumped up and nodded my head. I started backing up, I'm not sure why.

"You sure hun? We won't hurt you. I'm Marcia, this is Cherry." They slowly approached me. "Do you wanna come inside for a sec? It's hailing hard up here." I thought about it and nodded my head. I was damn cold and lost. And I knew I could trust them. They smiled and asked me to follow them. I did.

I entered the house and was in aw. I've never seen a house that nice. They offered me dry cloth and I expected. Once I was changed I met them in Cherrys room. "So what's your name?" Cherry asked.

"Uh, Kathleen Randle. We've met, you know my brother, and boyfriend." I looked at the ground.
"Oh, who's your brother and boyfriend?" Marcia asked.
"Steve Randle and Ponyboy Curtis." I began regretting coming into there house.